....Why I love stuffed animals...
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| Wed, 01-23-2008 - 3:59pm |
Why I love stuffed animals
No matter who I am at any given moment in time or space stuffed animals love me. There is no difference between love and hate the outcome is the same which is total unconditional love when I am around them. What more can I ask for in life... then unconditional love for being whom I am and am not?
Can you imagine a relationship where there is no beginning and no end to being loved unconditionally until the day you die? How about love and total love for who you are and are not at your age? How about being loved always even if you find yourself fat or skinny, wrinkly or young, pretty or ugly, rich or poor? Stuffed animals are sweet because if you choose they can be with you until death do you part.
Some times I try to imagine what it would feel like to be free from all the things I loath about myself and at the same time those same traits are welcomed into the unconditional loving arms of another forever and ever. I would love to have some thing in this world that has this undying unconditional love for me that I can actually touch physically not just spiritually in this world. It is one thing to believe in a god and it is a whole new ball game when I can get love from something physically on earth that loves my heart and soul for what it is and more importantly for what I am not. I would love to be loved for the life I created for myself and to never worry about letting any one down ever! I would love to be loved when I act or feel lower then a cockroach along and with the same intensity when I am being loved when I am flying higher then a bird. On my good days and especially on my bad days when I am being a real witch I would love the reactions to be the same from something I can touch in this world that would produce an over whelming feeling of unconditional love. At this point in my life I don’t care where these feelings of love and acceptance are derived from ... I just want to experience them before I die from something in this world. And non stop would be nice too.
I would prefer to experience total non stop unconditional love coming from another human being but that is not reality for me to give to another let alone try and get it from any else on planet earth. As a result, I had to go out side my box and I find a surrogate lover who could give me what I long for which is non stop unconditional love ever day of my life.
These longings to be loved in such a way use to be so far fetched from my reality that it was but a dream until I realize the benefits of having stuffed animals in my life.
I do count my blessings everyday but blessings to me do not fill the void when life is not giving me unconditional love. I realize that my life on any given day is better then most in this huge world of ours. Plus I know that I am living in heaven on earth if I were to be looking at my life through some else’s eyes who has no shoes. More importantly, to pull the covers up around my neck at night knowing I do not owe any one any money is something most people will never experience. As a result, I thank God that I have structured my life to turn out to be debt free. I have sacrificed being loved to be where I am because I realized early that if I do not take care of myself who else will? See that is where the stuffed animals come in handy again because with them I don’t have to give them money so they will love me unconditionally. Or in other words I do not have to buy there love. Buying love these days seems to be the norm with people. Whatz up with that?
Then there is this gift given to me called being over weight. I know to be over weight beyond a reasonable doubt is a gift because there are people who live here with me on planet earth that longs for food and are dying needlessly without it. Still I struggle with this over weight gift every day just to keep it under control so I will be loved by others. People make me feel less then a cockroach when I gain weight but in the eyes of a stuffed animal I am always beautiful because they don’t judge me by my outer skin.
Now lets talk about safe relationships... Who in their right mind would trade their life filled with abundance for another that is less fortunate then theirs? Answer is... No one who has a brain. On the other hand I can have multiple safe relationships with stuffed animals. Usually it is because it is easy...there is no demand on me to be something I am not or don’t want to be in the future. Plus I don’t have to be smart around them. Also, I don’t have to interactive with them when I would rather be doing something else. Furthermore, stuffed animals do not put me on guilt trips like people like to do with my brain. With stuffed animals I just have to be.
Lastly, as long as I want... stuffed animals will follow me any where and will accept me for being my imperfect self. Furthermore, I don’t have to play the good guy vs. bad guy game with them. Nor do I get caught up in playing the prosecutor and victim game to feel better about myself. In addition, there are no clicks when dealing with groups of stuffed animals which can mess up my brain on any given day when I find myself outside in the cold. Plus there are no big surprises with stuffed animals they are what they seem to be so they can not disappoint me in the future. As a result, I don’t have to read between the lines and guess where they are coming from. Nor do I have evaluate their behavior as being acceptable or not acceptable and then try to get every one to see it my way so I can legally punished them. Stuffed animals might not bring me the rewards that Human interactions might bring me... But they can not hurt me neither
Aloha and have a good day!
Hula Girl
Edited 1/27/2008 8:13 pm ET by hulagirl_leilani

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