Feeling out of sorts
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| Thu, 09-25-2008 - 12:25pm |
Hello,
I just don't really know what is wrong with me. I am being treated for depression but usually don't feel down until pmdd rears it's ugly head.
I did turn 43 in August. I'm married and have 2 children, 17 and 16.
I know it just hit me recently that it's gone by all too fast, my kids growing up.....
A couple weeks ago, I took my lunch by a park. The kids and I would go to this park every time they had an appt. with the pediatrician. I sat there and watched the toddlers and caught part of the conversations of the mothers. And I reminisced.
I would gladly live all those moments all over again!!!! It just hit me that I do really miss those times.
My daughter turned 16 on the 22nd. I have a hard time with her being a teenager. It's easier with my son. I don't feel as if my son shuts me out the way my daughter does.
She came into my room and we were chatting one night earlier this week. And it was a happy conversation. But I called my mother and asked her if she had cried when I turned 16. I had gone thru old photo albums and just cried before my daughter came home.
My mother said she only felt like that when I got married and when my brother got married. And that is when it hit her.
I don't know if it is the changing of the seasons, the kids growing up, the issues in my marriage- but I've been feeling down and out of sorts for a few days.
I have today off and can't seem to get movivated to do much of anything. But I am going to clean the living room and take my dog for a run and go to my mother's later to help her w/her computer.
The thing with my marriage is my husband is boring me to death with his talk about money and bills. It is a constant thing!!!! When we get up in the morning and then when we get home from work. I just can't take it.
In last Sunday's post secret, there was a postcard that had stocks in the background and the wife wrote "You're so worried about losing money, you're losing your WIFE."
I showed my husband this. He knows he does this. He's just like his father. But I didn't know his father for long and so didn't know his father was like this.
It's difficult to go out on the weekends and do something fun when it doesn't seem to be in his vocabulary.
Well, I am going to try to push myself to get out off my butt, especially before my son comes home from school. (he gets out early)
ISL

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ISL
You are indeed lucky to have two children and husbands are good most of the time.LOL With the economy in the shape it is we are all worried about money it is only normal.
My Dh worked a lot of hours when I was your age so he was not home very much. Now he is retired. Life goes fast enjoy it all when you can.
As you read in my post about my dgs we had a bit of worry here and living so far away from them makes it very hard sometimes.
HUGS
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