My heart is broken

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Registered: 08-07-2008
My heart is broken
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Thu, 04-09-2009 - 11:02pm

hello all,


   it has been a really long time...and a lot has happened...i have changed internet servers so many times i ended up loosing almost all my information...then changed computers pretty much ended up in loosing the rest...I have no idea if there is a chat room anymore and if so please someone tell me how to get there...i'm off work this week....but not for a good reason.....last Sunday my oldest  child passed away....he was 41...he went to sleep and just never woke up....they have told me his heart stopped....this is so hard and i am so numb ...a piece of my life is gone...no parent should outlive their own child...it is not fair and not right...and it causes too much pain...i don't blame God............God loaned David to me a long time ago and i guess he decided it was time and he wanted him back...but it really hasn't made it any easier...it just hurts so bad...i miss his big ole arms wrapped around me and his whisper in my ear ...'i love ya mom'  knowing i'll never hear it again...he was to start a new job on Monday....he had  just had a new baby girl last November and wanted to make  sure she had everything...now she will never even  know her father...life just stinks right now...remember me in your prayers... jane

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Registered: 11-12-1998
Fri, 04-10-2009 - 11:31am

(((((Jane))))) I am so sorry this has happened. It does seem so unfair and there just seems to be no explanation that can help even begin to ease even a bit of pain. I cannot imagine the pain of losing one's child and my heart goes out to you. I certainly will keep you and his little girl in my prayers. It's just so sad.


I'm glad you found your way to us. I have wondered about you many times. If there is a reason for this board and the chat at all, it is for this....support for one another.


We have been meeting on Yahoo...one of the others can explain that process, as we seem to be in a transition on all that. But when you can and feel up to it, I hope you'll come in.


Gentle hugs,


Red

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Fri, 04-10-2009 - 12:23pm

Hi Jane


Can there be anything worse that loosing a child? I really don't think so. I am so very sorry this has happenned and the fact that it was so unexpected only makes it harder I am sure. I am so very sorry to hear this news from you. I will indeed be keeping you and his family in my prayers.


iVillage no longer has chat rooms unfortunately. As Red said we do meet on yahoo messanger. M-F in the mornings and I think a few still do get together on Tuesday and Friday and Saturday nights.


If you email me though my profile here I will tell you how to get to the chats. You just have to click on my name and it will take you to my profile and you will see where you can email me.


((((Jane)))))))))))))


                          &n
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Registered: 03-20-2003
Sat, 04-11-2009 - 6:43pm
(((((((((((Jane))))))))))...there are no words good enough to express how much I am feeling for you right now.... Bless you dear Jane... there is no way I could know how you are feeling, I can only imagine.

       


 


                              &n

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sat, 04-11-2009 - 9:47pm
My heart goes out to you Janie. Just don't have the words to express my thoughts right now. You and all who loved him are in my prayers.

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Registered: 09-16-1999
Sun, 04-12-2009 - 12:33am
I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I just can't imagine what you are going through. Hope to see you at chat. Suzanne
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sun, 04-12-2009 - 2:26am

Jane, this is late because I haven't been here for a while, but I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I have wondered sometimes how I would make it through the loss of one of my children and I can't even imagine it. I am so very sorry.


Kat

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Registered: 04-09-1999
Sun, 04-12-2009 - 10:48am

I am with out words....having two sons I can imagine your pain and grief....and I am so very sorry.. Hugs and Prayers, Ruth





 


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Registered: 03-19-2003
Wed, 04-15-2009 - 7:30pm

(((Jane)))