05/10... I had a terrible day yesterday.
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05/10... I had a terrible day yesterday.
| Sat, 05-10-2003 - 9:23am |
I went to visit my dad. I was only there about 10 minutes. He started as soon as I walked in the door. He wanted me to open a door that wasn't there and move a sofa that wasn't there. He directed me to the corner of the room and insisted that I open the imaginary door. There was nothing I could do but explain that he is in the hospital and there was no door there. Then he wanted me to yank the smoke alarm down from the ceiling and I told him that I wasn't allowed to do that. Then he really got mad at me. He said "Damn kids. Don't ever do anything you want them to do. Wish I'd never had any kids. All you guys want is my money." Logically I knew that it was the medication, the illness, or whatever that was causing him to say these things, but .......emotionally it tore me to pieces. I went over by him and just said that it seems that he didn't want me t visit today and that I was leaving. And, I left. Then I went out to my car and cried and sobbed my heart out. It is so so hard. I don't want to go back if that's the way he's going to be. I know I will, but I don't know how much of this I can handle. Why, oh why do people have to go through this at the sunset of their lives?
Now, I have to put this all behind me and get a menu going because all 4 of my kids and all 7 of the grands will be here tomorrow. Also, I think I'd better get out and mow my yard. With all the rain we've had lately, it's beginning to look like a hay field. Hopefully it will dry out before the rain starts again.
I wish you all bright skies and sunny days. Have a good weekend ~ and I'll work on it too..... kaci

My heart aches for you! Your kids and dgks will help tomorrow!
Love and hugs, Darby
Hugs
RJ
(((kace)))its hard to see our loved ones like this,sometimes at the end we have our full faculties and sometimes not.i saw it both ways in my family!!have a good cry,get it out of your system and go on,you have so much life in front of you and im sure that your dad would agree!!!and although you have such dark clouds in your life rite now your kids and grankids spread enough sunshine to lite the whole earth!!enjoy your dinner,hope it doesnt rain!!((hugs))mindy