Good Morning All!!

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Good Morning All!!
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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 10:13am
So much to say, so little time! Let me start by saying I am alive and have missed you all so much! Also thanks to those who have contacted me by e-mail....it meant a great deal to me! I am sorry I have left you hanging!

It has been so nutso here the last couple weeks! My life has been turned upside down in so many ways and most days I don't know if I am coming or going! So you say, what else is new????

The job is hell on earth and I have been on a major mission to find something else. I have even applied for CNA certification. On Wednesday I have an interview with an attorneys office for a position of a Legal Aid Assistant. I want it bad. Heard it might be opening up while at the nail salon on Friday, went home got a resume, dropped it off Friday afternoon and got a call to come in for an interview yesterday. It hasn't even been advertised yet. Keep your fingers and toes crossed. I have applications and resumes everywhere!!!

DS is here and working in my store till he can find something permanent. It is good to have him here but he is missing New York and experiencing the culture shock. He feels like a fish out of water. I can identify cause some days I still do after over a year. That stresses me out cause I want him to be happy. He is so in love with this girl and worries constantly he's dreaming and something will happen like last time. Wonder where he got it from??

Oldest DS and I had a talk and all is fine. I guess he is just "different" in his outlook on things than the rest of us. It was a good talk though and we are "starting again'!

Rick is good and working his butt off as usual. He is home every weekend and lots during the week sometimes. It's crazy cause I never know. But I love him to death.

I ended up working Easter. It was awful. My son went to church with the rest of the family thank goodness and loved it. He has found a new church home. Thanks to this job I missed my great my nieces baby shower and the babies dedication. They just don't care!

My Mom is suffering terribly with what surely sounds like Rheumatoid Arthritis. She had been refusing to go to the doctor but my sister has made an appointment and she is going today. I worry about her so. I want to get to New York to see her as well as my DGS. My "non-smoking fund" is growing but I want to go on a Ladybug trip, go to New York and Rick and I need a vacation.......it will only go so far!!! I am constantly being pulled in different directions and feel like everyone wants a piece of me. I try to be everything to everone and it is wearing me down but it has always been that way! I need to be back in therepy but "I" always wait! Just like I still have not been to the doctor for the physical problems I have been having! It's just always something! It will come together, I just have to sit down and make a list of priorities I guess and deal with them one at a time cause this way is so overwhelming!!

I am concerned with what is going on with all of you and will try to catch-up! I feel so selfish! I love and miss you all and promise not to stay away so long again! Sometimes it is just easier to "shut down". But that is not the answer.

Sorry....I didn't mean to dump, but I feel better! Thanjs again for always being there! You all are the best and mean so much to me! I pray for you all avery day and want you to know I appreciate the prayers that you all are sending up for me! God must say, "Oh man, HER again??" LOL!

Have a great day and promise to CU all later!!

Lots of love,

Sharon

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Registered: 10-19-2000
Tue, 04-29-2003 - 10:54am
Oh, Sharon, it is so-o-o very good to see you here in the Garden again! We have sorely missed you!

It sounds as if things may be turning around for the better in your little corner of the world! That is wonderful. I sure hope you can find another job soon, one where they will appreciate you and treat you better! Glad your baby boy is there and in love - if he lets this take its normal course and doesn't push it away, I'm sure he'll be just fine! Glad too that your eldest son has come around. It surely does hurt to be estranged from a child.

Glad you have Rick to keep you leaning towards happy!!

(:|:) Kt

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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 11:05am
Whow! Sharon! First and formost is the prayers that are going up for you first of all then for your Mother! She sounds subborn about the doctors! I'm hoping for you to get that new job!

I missed you here! We all did, and you can dump on us all you need! There may be a time that I might have to dump on you! I wish I had this group back when I was going through my last divorce, because this is the best support group a bug could ask for! It would have helped me emincely! Now I can cheer you up with happy thoughts! We all have some down times in our lives!

Do you want to hear something wonderful? My only sister is IMing with me! we have missed a lot of years because of not liveing near by each other! She is 10 years my senior!

But I've allways looked up to her! When we IM together, it is like being in the same room together! E-mail me and I will put you on my buddy list! I get my feelings out better this way, better then talking, I always like to stop and think before I speak! My sister and I are getting to know each other now! I'm so happy about this that i'm about to cry! Excuse me while I grab a tissue! See there even happiness can make a bug cry!

So Sharon think of the positive things in your life and first of all get your self taken care of! Then all the other things will work out! Here's a big Hug for a special Bug!

((((((Hug))))))! SusieK
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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 11:17am
Thanks Susie for your warm special thoughts. They mean more to me than you know!

I am so happy for what is taking place with you and your sister!! Family is so important and we need that contact any way we can get it. Thanks God for computers!

I have Yahoo, MSN and AOl Im capabilities. I promise to e-mail soon about it!

Take care and have a great day!

Love,

Shar

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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 11:47am
hi sharon,

love you little icon.

so much has been happening with you and i missed most of it. stay away from the board for a few days and boy do you fall behind. hopefully we can both catch up now.

still smoke free, that's great!!!! i am all for people quitting smoking, especially since my dad died of lung cancer.

good luck with the job, hope you get it.

my sil was just diagnosed with rhuematiod arthritis, also my mil suffer from it. hope you mom is ok.

have a great day,

ellen

 

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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 12:44pm
What's that old joke?..."Aside from that Mr. Lincoln, how did you like the play?"...you've been getting dumped on from all directions! I really hope you can find a job that is alot less stressful, looks like that would take away at least part of your worries. I think I'd missed some posts so wasn't really sure how you were or if something has happened (now there's an understatement)! Take care of yourself, your family and friends here need you, many hugs.........TJ
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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 1:20pm
Hello Sharon! SO good to hear from you and to catch up on your news. Through all that you're enduring, you are still cigarette-free?? You are a wonderwoman, so strong. You expect an incredible amount from yourself, you know. You *do* know that, don't you? If not, we bugs will tell you so! I hope that Legal Aid Assistant position is offered to you. You do need a job change, that would be one stress-reliever that would help. Don't feel bad for not being here more often, just keep in touch when you can, OK? You have so many friends here who are concerned about you, and want nothing from you but that you take care of yourself and enjoy life...and share a bit of it with us. Seren
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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 7:36pm
Hi Sharin. Special hugs and prayers coming your way. Well it certainly sounds like your plate is way to full. I guess most of us always put everyone else first and we get to ourselves when, lol, we finally get the time or the money. Please, if you do nothing else, go see the dr. We really don't want anything serious to happen because you didn't go. Hang in there friend. We are always here for you. Lynda
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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 8:20pm
Hi, Sharon. I just know that the right job is out there waiting on you. Hope you can find it soon and be done wtih these people. Best of luck.--Pat
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Wed, 04-30-2003 - 7:58am
Sharon, it is so good to see you here again.

You have been having a lot going on. If they treated you right at the job, you could deal with all of the other stuff easier. Prayers that you get something else that you want, and I emphasize "want". Seems you are doing a lot for others and it is time for "you".

Hang in there friend. I do understand, though, that you are dealing with much more than a lot of us. You feel selfish? No way!

Big hugs to you.

Lanie (my new name)

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Wed, 04-30-2003 - 9:23am
Sharon, as you know, we have missed you in the garden, but after reading your post, I can understand why you haven't been here lately. Bless your heart, I hope everything works out for you and I am praying that you get the job you want. It sounds perfect for you! Love ya!!...BB
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