Good Morning All!!

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Good Morning All!!
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Tue, 04-29-2003 - 10:13am
So much to say, so little time! Let me start by saying I am alive and have missed you all so much! Also thanks to those who have contacted me by e-mail....it meant a great deal to me! I am sorry I have left you hanging!

It has been so nutso here the last couple weeks! My life has been turned upside down in so many ways and most days I don't know if I am coming or going! So you say, what else is new????

The job is hell on earth and I have been on a major mission to find something else. I have even applied for CNA certification. On Wednesday I have an interview with an attorneys office for a position of a Legal Aid Assistant. I want it bad. Heard it might be opening up while at the nail salon on Friday, went home got a resume, dropped it off Friday afternoon and got a call to come in for an interview yesterday. It hasn't even been advertised yet. Keep your fingers and toes crossed. I have applications and resumes everywhere!!!

DS is here and working in my store till he can find something permanent. It is good to have him here but he is missing New York and experiencing the culture shock. He feels like a fish out of water. I can identify cause some days I still do after over a year. That stresses me out cause I want him to be happy. He is so in love with this girl and worries constantly he's dreaming and something will happen like last time. Wonder where he got it from??

Oldest DS and I had a talk and all is fine. I guess he is just "different" in his outlook on things than the rest of us. It was a good talk though and we are "starting again'!

Rick is good and working his butt off as usual. He is home every weekend and lots during the week sometimes. It's crazy cause I never know. But I love him to death.

I ended up working Easter. It was awful. My son went to church with the rest of the family thank goodness and loved it. He has found a new church home. Thanks to this job I missed my great my nieces baby shower and the babies dedication. They just don't care!

My Mom is suffering terribly with what surely sounds like Rheumatoid Arthritis. She had been refusing to go to the doctor but my sister has made an appointment and she is going today. I worry about her so. I want to get to New York to see her as well as my DGS. My "non-smoking fund" is growing but I want to go on a Ladybug trip, go to New York and Rick and I need a vacation.......it will only go so far!!! I am constantly being pulled in different directions and feel like everyone wants a piece of me. I try to be everything to everone and it is wearing me down but it has always been that way! I need to be back in therepy but "I" always wait! Just like I still have not been to the doctor for the physical problems I have been having! It's just always something! It will come together, I just have to sit down and make a list of priorities I guess and deal with them one at a time cause this way is so overwhelming!!

I am concerned with what is going on with all of you and will try to catch-up! I feel so selfish! I love and miss you all and promise not to stay away so long again! Sometimes it is just easier to "shut down". But that is not the answer.

Sorry....I didn't mean to dump, but I feel better! Thanjs again for always being there! You all are the best and mean so much to me! I pray for you all avery day and want you to know I appreciate the prayers that you all are sending up for me! God must say, "Oh man, HER again??" LOL!

Have a great day and promise to CU all later!!

Lots of love,

Sharon

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Thu, 05-01-2003 - 5:32am
Glad to see you back here with us Sharon.

Sorry you ended up working Easter and missed time with your family. If I remember correctly the only reason you took that job was to get out of the house and do something for yourself. It never was the ideal job and now its time to move on. I will send lots of prayers and many positive thoughts your way and hope that things work out with the legal aid position.

So you have your son with you..have talked with your other son and things are fine and Rick is good..all good things. Your sister is talking care of things with your Mom, so how about taking care of yourself. Its difficult to change our ways but in an attempt to be everything to everyone we usually just exhaust ourselves.

I've spent my share of time trying to solve everyones problems but have come to the realization that things take there own course and usually resolve themselves.

When you make your list of priorities you have to put yourself first...while your running around taking care of everyone else who's taking care of you?

We have strong shoulders here in the Garden....so dump away when the need arises...God can handle it too...

Sending hugs and prayers - Val

                                      

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Thu, 05-01-2003 - 7:51am
Sharin, keep the faith. There is a better job out there for you. It just hasn't found you yet. Until then, let them know in advance what day you want off so they can find a replacement for that day. I just saw a spider crawling up my wall; time to call in the ladybugs to take care of that (lol). CU later. Kathey
Kathey
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Thu, 05-01-2003 - 12:31pm
Oh Sharon, it is so good to see you again! I too have been away from the board alot, but I am just in a whirlwind over this moving. We close on our house on May 23 & moving to a new state, as you no doubt remember is grueling. But this too shall pass.

I've been remiss because I kept saying that I had to email you but of course I didn't. Needless to say you've been in my prayers & thoughts. Hang on, things will fall into place. Take some deep breaths...That's what BB told me to do, take small steps (from Elaine), feel the love (Franni) & just set some limits. You've been thru alot, & each time you will get stronger. Take care dear friend, hugsss, dee

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Thu, 05-01-2003 - 4:17pm
Looks like you got my message because I received your reply. Thanks.

You have lots on your plate right now and you are dealing with everything quite well. Good luck with your job search. Keep us posted.

Many blessings!

F.

 

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Thu, 05-01-2003 - 6:18pm
Sharon, if you don't take care of yourself, who will??

Sometimes you have to just stop and do for yourself.

Make the doctors appointments, call your mom, wish your

sons well, and love Rick. It will all come together!

Now go smell the flowers and think about you!

Fran

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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 12:21am
Good to see you here Sharon, I've been peeking in to see an update post from you. How'd the interview go? How is your mother doing after seeing the doctor? Very happy for you that you and your DS had a good talk. I know how hard this has been on you. Hopefully things will get much better from now on.

I'm praying that a really good job will come along now with good salary and good benefits too. It's far time you get treated with the respect that you deserve. Please don't stay away so long, you are missed here. Take good care of yourself.

~~Love, Susie

Hugs,

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