I have to vent a little-
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I have to vent a little-
| Fri, 07-18-2003 - 10:31am |
First, I am NOT temping this month because it does nothing for me except confirm that I did O...it gives me no clue as to when I am about to O. I am focusing on just my CM and CP this month- hopefully I'll have better luck. My first 4 were conceived without trying- so I thought when we decided to go for #5 it would be a piece of cake. Well, I'm on my 4th cycle-- some piece of cake. I try to not read the BFP postings each day because sometimes it's just too depressing- especially when I see people who get it on their first cycle. I am really hoping to make it this month, because if we don't get a + this time around, we are taking 3-4 months off because of timing issues- don't want to be expecting between May and August next year for various reasons. That's a LONG time off, but I know that it's the best decision in the long run. And so much can happen in 3-4 months...what if DH changes his mind, what TRY and we can't seem to get it right...yet if I didn't want to be pg, I probably would be by now. I wanted Luke to have (hopefully) a brother close to his age (I have a 10.5, a 9, a 4.5, and a 1 year old) since there is such a big span in ages there. But if I have to wait until November to start TTC again, that just puts 2+ years between them (which isn't alot I know)- and I don't want to get into the same pattern as I did before where the 'baby' in the family is finally a little older, getting out of or already out of diapers, is beyond the waking up and bottles, etc. and I am pg and starting it all over again. I just can't stand the waiting and disappointment-
Stacey

Teresa
I thought the same as you that I wanted to time them correctly and wam bam thank you mame I would be PG since we did not try to get PG w/DS. I sit here after 13 cycles wondering why???? I personally would not try to stop TTC because of timing. I thought I didn't want a June-Aug baby. But I would die for one now!!! Its up to you but your right it gets harder, I wanted DS to have a closer bond to his sibling. I didn't want one out of diapers and do it all over again. UGH I am rambling but your not alone at all with your thoughts.
Allison