Jealous/Angry/Pain Expected (vent, long)
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| Sun, 07-20-2003 - 6:41pm |
1)Dont worry, it took us months
2)A negative PG test doesnt mean anything
3)Look, whenever you need a kid, take mine!
I tried to explain that I had been let down too many times to be optimistic and that my husband and I want a child that looks like us. She says "My baby DOES look like you husband." (it's his brother's child) Like that makes ME feel ANY better. I rode with her and had to watch her fill her cart with baby items and gush with love over her baby and his newest developments. Then we went to see him. I tried to remain distant and unattached, but everytime I saw that baby's love for his mother I was heartbroken.. Will I ever have a love like that?? GROAN...I guess the only thing that kept me from going nuts was that AF hadnt shown.
Today after a nap, I woke up to that horrible orange color that tells me she is on her way. AND I have cramps soooo bad sometimes that Ive gone to the emergency room. All I can do now is stock up on pills and pout.
PLUS my husband is very possessive and was angry that I was out with my SIL. He expects me to sit home all day and clean. I just quit my job and our budget is non-existent, and he had the NERVE to call me and announce that he and his coworkers had lunch at a fancy restaurant. I needed that money for groceries!!!! Why should he go out while I sit here in his prison??

I hope you feel better after you wrote your post, remember that is what we are hear for.
Also, try to remember (and it can be oh so hard) that people say those things to try to make us feel better. Unless a person has been there, they really don't understand and sometimes the wrong things are said.
Best of luck to you and I hope you get your BFP soon!
Jen