I'm officially confused

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I'm officially confused
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Sun, 09-21-2003 - 4:08pm
OK, just like the title say's I'm officially confused and frustrated I might add.

I think I o'd on cd36 but who really knows as I just started charting. On cd36 I took opk test and it was definate +. Well the next day temp went up which would leave one to assume that I indeed O'ed. BT has remained up there, which is fine. Well, cd 40 bb got sore and I feel all crampy, bloated and a bit irratable. I'm still crampy and my bloating seemed to be taken care of by a good #2 (sorry tmi). BB are still very sore, specially the nipples, they are becoming a little more fuller but that's typical pre mense symptoms right? BT spiked yesterday making me think that maybe I O'ed two days ago... I wish I had started charting a long time ago to clear all these inconsistancies I'm finding. I'm frustrated and all around confused by everything. Gee, all I want is to be PG, I didn't want to have all this stess added to my life and now I'm totally obsessed about it! I look at the pg women in the store and long to be them, I see little babies and I want one. I wish it would be so much easier than this - I need to chill out and except what happens, but I still obsess about it. I need help! I think I need real psychological help! Anyone know a good shrink?

Back to my obsessing, do you think that maybe the spike could of been implantation? I nkow I need to quit thinking about it.

I needed to vent, sorry for the bummer and vent session. I've just had it today.

sunny

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Sun, 09-21-2003 - 4:19pm
Sunny, I think your chart looks really good (even though I don't know your temps prior o). As far as implantation, some say there is a dip, but I don't think there is any scientific evidence to back that up. But, if you did experience implantation, today might be that day and that's your dip. I'm not sure about the symptoms you are experiencing though. Usually, you wont start to experience symptoms until after implantation when your body starts producing HcG. I believe I am very sensitive to that hormone because I get symptoms very quickly but not until after implantation. Who knows though, you could have implanted earlier than today. As long as your temps stay high, I wouldn't worry about the hills and valleys.

Good luck to you.

Susan

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Sun, 09-21-2003 - 4:52pm
Sunny,

I totally understand what you are going through. I am doing the same thing. I have been trying since January and finally ended up pregnant in June. I had a miscarriage a week later. So, now it is September and I still have not gotten pregnant again. It sucks!!! I am the same way, I am so obsessed. I want a baby so bad. All of my friends have kids and are having more kids and I can't even get pregnant with one. Everytime AF comes I cry for a couple of days. My poor husband is trying so hard to support me but I know it upsets him too that nothing has happend. I am only 22 and am in great health I don't smoke or drink and I even stay away from caffeine plus I take prenatal vitamins, so as you can see I am very frustrated. Best of luck with you.