May Exercise-The Heart of Balik
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May Exercise-The Heart of Balik
The moon is full tonight. It has been a year since I seen him last. I still feel his wings brushing against my face, his lips touching mine. I had never believed in fairies, they were stories told by parents to entertain the children. That night I learned the true nature of the being and fell in love with their king.
Balik, the name that rolls off my tongue with ecstasy, came to me during the full moon of autumn. I remember well his features that filled my heart with longing. His brown hair that hung with ringlet curls around his face, the green eyes that could see through my soul, and the delicate fingers that caressed my face.
We walked along the riverbank talking as if we were old friends. Words came so easily that night. I watched the moonlight bounce off of his own light wishing to be embraced by his spirit, my body ached to hold him close.
Balik took me to his kingdom’s entrance in the woods. He took my hand and lead me to the world I wished I had made my own. The limbs of the trees draped over my shoulders, the scent of the purple flowers hanging from them made me weak. Tranquility hung in the air, I took deep breaths of it, letting it fill my heart with peace. Bird’s voices filled the area with music as sweet as I had ever heard. My eyes darted from tree to tree trying to take it all in, I wanted to remember every detail of the scene before me.
We moved to a grove that had within it a small waterfall, rocks covered in moss lay at the bottom sighing with each touch of the water drops. Trees surrounded the setting blowing by a slight breeze that carried small droplets of water across my skin. The colors were so bright, my world was dulled in comparison.
Letting go of his hand, I ran to the water’s edge, running my fingers across the coolness watching the ripples move across the surface. He laughed at me as I pulled off my shoes and dipped my feet in. I ran through the water, holding my arms to the sky, spinning in circles. The laughter spurred me on, I slipped upon the moss, but he caught the fall bringing me back to the grass.
Balik put his arm around my waist and laid me down on a patch of clover. He laid beside me leaning on his elbow, his face close to mine. He looked up and pointed to the items around us, telling me of their nature. I didn’t hear a word of it, all I could see was his face. I stared at him memorizing each line, smelling the scent of his skin, wanting so much to feel his lips pressed against mine.
He noticed I wasn’t listening and looked into my eyes. My heart stopped as he bent down and pressed his lips to mine. I couldn’t breathe. I didn’t want to. Wrapping my arms around his neck, bringing him closer we let ourselves go for pleasure.
He awoke me with gentle kisses on my neck. I pulled him close again to taste his sweet lips. I still remember his words as he stared into my eyes:
“Stay with me, come to my castle and be my queen. You will never know sorrow or pain. I will make you as happy as you have made me tonight. The Gods have brought us together, please don’t let it be for one night.”
“Why one night, Balik?”
“The gates are open only one time a year. I cannot leave, I am King of the Fairies, so I must ask that you remain here. I have watched you through the glass since you first moved here. Last year I came to you and watched as you slept. I have been in love with you since. I don’t want to go another year without you by my side.”
I was a fool in leaving. I fear now that he will not return. Sitting by the banks of the river thinking of him each night that the moon is full has broken my heart more than once. The loose ends that I felt needed taken care of could have been left behind. They were nothing compared to the sorrow I have felt without him. It is only a year I told him, then we can be together forever. I was such a fool.
“Anwen, my love. Are you ready to come home now?”
“Balic, you did come for me. I am ready, I was such fool, I …”
“Hush now my dearest, Anwen. Everything is going to be all right now. You were worth the wait.”