Very Very depressed...

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Registered: 06-16-2003
Very Very depressed...
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Sun, 02-22-2004 - 12:37pm
hey ladies..

i have not been on at all this weekend b/c I have been working so much. Yesterday I got in 9.5 hours, and today I am working a total of 13 hours...more than half the day!!! I have to work at noon, so I will be leaving soon to go to work, but I just wanted to say Hi and...I am really depressed. I already snapped at my parents today, and called my b/f crying...he gave me a pep talk..lol..i love him...

I have worked at least 8 hours a day for the past 7 days...and I know that most of you work 8 hour days, but this is really hard work, and 5 of out 7 days a week, I work 8 hours AFTER I've been at school all day!! I mean, I am on my feet the whole time, and while it is effecting my figure(for the good), it is effecting my personality for the bad. I barely get to sleep!! I did ask for more hours, but GEEZ! I didn't say that I wanted to live at work!! I just want to quit..but I have a bad habit of quitting jobs before I find another one..and I have been looking, but problem is, I live in the buttcrack of Tennessee, there are no jobs here, unless I want to work another crappy job, crappier than I have now. And THEN the manager I worked with last night, some of my friends came in right when I was getting off, and they were gonna eat, so I sat down with them for a few, and that manager basically said "well, if you're gonna be here, you might as well keep working..." I was like HECK NAW!!! I HATE MY JOB!!! I HATE MY LIFE!!! I just...don't see the point anymore of anything. This has given me a really bad..attitude on life. I don't care about anything. I was telling Roger that this morning, and he was like "Baby, i'll give you a massage when you get here on Friday." I was like "I'm past that....I feel like suicide is the only thing that will make me feel good..." I WAS J/K, but he's like "NO.....I don't think so...."

Well, I hafta go to work now, so I will talk to you all tomorrow morning!!

Sara

~Sayruhb02

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Registered: 05-19-2003
Sun, 02-22-2004 - 12:56pm
Hi Sara, i'm sorry you're having a bad time! The advice i give you is to go to your doctor, they have q's they ask to see if you are just depressed,in a depression or maybe just burned out. Don't let it go, you're worth more than that, you deserve to be happy =)

Back in Aug i got a job in a factory i was working 6-7 days a week i'd leave at 5:30 then get home at 5 or 9 depending on overtime,i quit the job begining of oct. i hadn't had a day off all month and i was so getting burnt out and depressed, not to mention missing my dd like crazy i would cry on way to work..lol..i was felt so good after that i spent a week after that just relaxing =) the begining of last year i was in a depression and went to dr and got prescribed meds for awhile.

I think the doctor will be able to tell you if you need antidepressant pills or just some relaxation. I hope you have a great week don't work too hard!


Edited 2/22/2004 1:06:46 PM ET by angelinoh
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Sun, 02-22-2004 - 2:55pm
Sara (((((((((((HUGS))))))))))) Im so sorry your feeling so lousy...being at a job you hate makes life miserable sometimes..but just remember when you get finished with school you can get a GOOD paying job and wont hae to put up with bs from people . I'm seing P&PT your way and I sure hope your day ends up better than it was this morning...remember your in all of our thoughts and we do care!!! Come back to vent or cry or whatever you need to do .
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Registered: 06-13-2003
Sun, 02-22-2004 - 5:31pm
Sara - you need to learn to say no. When your boss asks you to stay - say "no I can't, I'm tired, I've worked 8 hours for the past week and I'm going home." You aren't a machine or anyone's slave...even if you need the money, you need to take care of yourself MORE.
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Registered: 01-07-2004
Mon, 02-23-2004 - 9:28am
So know where you are coming from. Let me tell you how school was for me...first when I was a music major I had school at 19 hours and the rest of my time was in the practice room which would equal a 50 hour work week. When I moved back home and changed my major I was taking 15 to 19 hours a week and working a full 35 to 40 hours and not on the weekends. I totally understand what you are going through. There were days that I just went nutz. BUT I also focused that I needed to do this to pay for school and to live. It's hard to say no when you need the money and it's hard to say no when you have a pushy boss, but you need to do that if you are running down.

been there, done that...and you can do this. there is light at the end of the tunnel UNTIL your job after school starts to resemble those hours..then..wait that's another email

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 02-23-2004 - 9:40am
It sounds like life is very hectic for you right now.

  Shawna-- Proud Cl for 100 Pounds or More to Go 

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Registered: 06-13-2003
Mon, 02-23-2004 - 10:57am
you were a music major? so was I - I never practiced though...still managed to pass somehow..ha! :)
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Registered: 01-07-2004
Mon, 02-23-2004 - 11:01am
I left it with one year to go because it became a job. My principal is voice my secondary was piano. I had to pass barriers at each step or be kicked out. Talk about voice, choir, and piano practice with another 11 hours or so of regular classes. It SOOO became a job. What is your principal?
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Registered: 11-04-2003
Mon, 02-23-2004 - 7:11pm

Sara,


 
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Registered: 06-13-2003
Mon, 02-23-2004 - 8:34pm
piano...I'm a piano teacher now. :P Studying to be a fitness instructor, I think there are a lot of similarities, you have to motivate people and keep them interested, you have to work hard to always be improving, you have to have a good sense of rhythm...lots of things..

Also, I don't take singing lessons but I sing at church and also signed up for some music festivals, just because I like to sing...

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Registered: 02-09-2004
Tue, 02-24-2004 - 9:20am
I have always wanted to take piano lessions!!!!!

Sob sob...........

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