Very Very depressed...
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| Sun, 02-22-2004 - 12:37pm |
i have not been on at all this weekend b/c I have been working so much. Yesterday I got in 9.5 hours, and today I am working a total of 13 hours...more than half the day!!! I have to work at noon, so I will be leaving soon to go to work, but I just wanted to say Hi and...I am really depressed. I already snapped at my parents today, and called my b/f crying...he gave me a pep talk..lol..i love him...
I have worked at least 8 hours a day for the past 7 days...and I know that most of you work 8 hour days, but this is really hard work, and 5 of out 7 days a week, I work 8 hours AFTER I've been at school all day!! I mean, I am on my feet the whole time, and while it is effecting my figure(for the good), it is effecting my personality for the bad. I barely get to sleep!! I did ask for more hours, but GEEZ! I didn't say that I wanted to live at work!! I just want to quit..but I have a bad habit of quitting jobs before I find another one..and I have been looking, but problem is, I live in the buttcrack of Tennessee, there are no jobs here, unless I want to work another crappy job, crappier than I have now. And THEN the manager I worked with last night, some of my friends came in right when I was getting off, and they were gonna eat, so I sat down with them for a few, and that manager basically said "well, if you're gonna be here, you might as well keep working..." I was like HECK NAW!!! I HATE MY JOB!!! I HATE MY LIFE!!! I just...don't see the point anymore of anything. This has given me a really bad..attitude on life. I don't care about anything. I was telling Roger that this morning, and he was like "Baby, i'll give you a massage when you get here on Friday." I was like "I'm past that....I feel like suicide is the only thing that will make me feel good..." I WAS J/K, but he's like "NO.....I don't think so...."
Well, I hafta go to work now, so I will talk to you all tomorrow morning!!
Sara

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