depressed as usual(OT)

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depressed as usual(OT)
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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 9:29am
I am depressed as I always am. Everything in my life sucks right now. I have no friends; really, zero friends, so I am extremely lonely, and Rog has been severly neglecting our LDR. He tells me he'll call me, but then he "forgets" to...and I am tired of calling him. I hate that I am that low in his priority list lately. I hate school, I hate my job, I am always tired and everyone basically has to walk on eggshells around me b/c I go off in a second for any reason. I don't know what to do anymore...I am just a loser....

Sara

~Sayruhb02

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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 9:37am
OH you are so lucky that I don't live where you are or you might have a serious butt kicking.

You do have friends. Someone of your good nature just can't help but have friends. Stop and look around and see though eyes not clouded by stress, fatigue, and annoyances.

Rog needs s serious butt kickin. What I would do is tell him in a no way out of this you dork voice that enough is enough, give consequences for the lack fo performance, and then have a life away from him. He will either get his butt into gear or you will discover who you are again.

Everyone hates school. I hated school but you know what kept me was the nice life after school I would have. Don't worry about work. It's just that a job it's not your life and don't let them think it is.

And by all means go yell at a tree!!! I used to do that when I got stressed out. Trees, no matter what Lord of the Rings say, are not going to get hurt or yell back and you will feel so much better.

AND IF I HEAR YOU EVER SAY I AM A LOSER AGAIN I AM GOING TO KICK YOUR ASS

:)

You know I said that all in a very sweet voice and manner. blink blink

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 9:43am

I totally agree with Karrie!

  Shawna-- Proud Cl for 100 Pounds or More to Go 

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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 9:51am
By the way Shawna there is a kidnapping plot being hatched to grab dexter from you...

I totally agree about men. You can only tell them too much and as much as I hate learning it right now work is the first thing they think about during the day. I am so hating the silence from him but I also know that he is busy with work.

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Registered: 09-04-2003
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 9:51am
Oh, Sweet Sara,

You are absolutely NOT "just a loser", this is just a bad patch! Please believe me, because I've been there recently. (Still working through some of it, with the short-term help of anti-depressants... have you talked with a physician about this possibility?)

I also think you're probably being WAY to hard on yourself... I've read your posts, and you seem like such a darling! Can we blame it on the phase of the moon?

Mickie

PS-- Some "boys" just *suck* at remembering the things that we civilized women think are important. Especially if we call them before they have to call us. Sad but true!

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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 10:14am
Thanks you guys....i am just very lonely i think is the main thing here, and my one best friend is neglecting me, it sucks. Actually shawna, we broke up over this once. I got sick of it and we broke up....but that was 7 months ago. Why did I think he would change? But he'll go thru spells where he'll call whenever he says and all that, but here lately it's just been a big blank. Actually, I just broke down and called him on my cell after I posted, and I was like "Why didn't you call?" "Oh, I must have misdialed or something*that's just roger*" and he put a little "heh heh" in there. But he heard how upset I sounded and he said he was sorry and he'll call me tonight. If he doesn't call me, I am not going over there tomorrow. No way no how. I just feel like i love him so much more than he loves me..and that's not right ya know? I shouldn't feel like that. I should have someone who loves me and I should know it every second. Who makes me feel important...but I don't...and I think it does have a lot to do with my having no, I REPEAT Karrie, NO friends. I don't have any. I don't know how it's like, everyone skips over me. I never get invited out anywhere with anyone, and when I have in the past few weeks, I always have to work and that prevents new friendships. None of my old friends want to hang out with me b/c they are too busy with college while I'm still in Paris at Technology school, and all my friends I had at school are gone, either quit, got a job, or graduated. Nobody ever calls me. I never get any mail...I have nobody.
~Sayruhb02
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Registered: 02-09-2004
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 10:24am
I will be your pen pal if you like! I love to write letters and send cards and then you would get mail!!

JEN

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Registered: 12-06-2003
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 10:27am

Sara..I am on my way out the door but just wanted to say I wubbb you!!


I totally agree with everything Karrie said except for the tree talking..I swear back in my college days I was a lil tipsy and well..I had a long thoughtful conversation with a lovely pine named GEORGE ! (jk for those of you who dont know how goofey I am)


Anywho..I know we are all "internet" buds but I can gaurantee we would all be there for you in the drop of a hat!! I hope you get to feeling better and I will email you some zoloft *wink* Love ya girlie Apez

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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 10:53am

<By the way Shawna there is a kidnapping plot being hatched to grab dexter from you... >


There's what?!?!?!

  Shawna-- Proud Cl for 100 Pounds or More to Go 

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 11:00am

You are right Sara.

  Shawna-- Proud Cl for 100 Pounds or More to Go 

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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 11:08am
passing around the black ski masks and gloves

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