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Registered: 01-07-2004
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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 1:30pm
Alright Ladies I'm yet again fighting some huge insecurities and impatience. BUT I'm not throwing self control to the wind and eating the sweets and what not I have.

Basically, logically, I know he is very interested and I know that he is not playing me. Illogically, which I happen to think is just the female's mind, I am very impatient that he hasn't emailed or called since Tuesday night. Mind you...I do know he is very busy and probably trying to set a slower pace. Try holding still when you are "dying" to talk to the goof. :)

Second, and very illogically, I am so scared this is going to just go away. I am frightened that this is just a game like so many in the past. Again, let the logical and engineering influenced mind take over...I know that he is not that way and I know that it is my own insecurity from the past trying to make it icky. I also think that I am being tested to one be patient with him and to trust him and what is going on.

BUT as I degressed, I am not stuffing my anxieties into my tummy and I am not planning too. That's a big hurdle there.

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Registered: 02-09-2004
In reply to: karrietex
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 1:39pm
Sounds like you need to get your mind on something else! Like call a friend and do something, or go shopping, or read a good smutty book or steal a hamster or is it a gerbil?

Just take 10 deep breaths and play hard to get remember!

JEN

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Registered: 01-07-2004
In reply to: karrietex
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 1:45pm
Wish I could play hard to get but it has gone beyond that and again I am not dealing with a 33 yr old boy. Though after seeing him, I think it might be easier to deal with a 33 yr old boy and not a 40 yr old man.

I am trying. Really I am and I am working through it as best as I can without getting nuts. I have allowed myself my normal sweet intake and I am about to go walk stairs but not in 3 inch heels this time.

I am just going to have to work through it.

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Registered: 01-07-2004
In reply to: karrietex
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 2:25pm
Wow...here I am trying to eat when I am not hungry when BAM it hits me. The whole lesson today is to trust completely. You know that he is not looking at someone else, dating someone else, just in general using me.

Talk about a lightening bolt followed by hunger pains and I have already eaten my little lunch. HMMM, if you have seen LOTR, can this be my second lunch??

WOW...trust that's it that's what I am being taught and I know it's OK.

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Registered: 06-16-2003
In reply to: karrietex
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 2:50pm
Kar,

Why don't you just call him?? That's what I would do.

BTW, I am feeling a lot better since this morning, thanks to you and the other girls. I guess I have a couple friends at school. We went to Sonic for lunch and we were having fun, and I actually laughed with friends for the first time in a while. I needed that.

Sara

~Sayruhb02
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Registered: 01-07-2004
In reply to: karrietex
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 3:14pm
I don't need to call him. He just emailed me. He has 5 more proposals due this evening and it has taken over his whole life. I do understand that but what a lesson I learned. I have had to face that yes this man does have a spot for me in his life and he isn't trying to get anything from me. Very hard to trust on this. But I am doing so much better now. :)

See I told you you have buddies. I am so glad you are feeling better. :)

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Registered: 04-05-2003
In reply to: karrietex
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 4:54pm

K,

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: karrietex
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 4:54pm
All those suggestions were good except the last one.

  Shawna-- Proud Cl for 100 Pounds or More to Go 

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Registered: 11-04-2003
In reply to: karrietex
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 8:26pm
Glad to see he emailed you.