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Wed, 04-07-2004 - 1:47am
I just posted this on the Anti-Diet Board, and wanted to share with all of you lovely ladies here, too !

<< The Sound Of One Head Banging...

message #: 4425.1

from: bugnugget

date: 1:14 am



DAMMIT THUMP DAMMIT THUMP DAMMIT THUMP DAMMIT THUMP THUMP THUMP....

I am so THUMP irritated right THUMP now that I THUMPTHUMPTHUMP could tear my !@#*$#! hair out. THUMP.

A quick synopsis :

I have lost 90+ pounds since 2000.

Have done Atkin's on/off. Lost weight.

Did Atkin's religiously this January into mid-February.

Lost more weight. :)

Got cholesterol tested. Twice. :(

Suspected Atkin's high amounts of sat fat to be responsible.

Went on low fat/fat free diet plus more excersize. Have till June to get numbers down.

I have cut out red meat, cheese, almost all fats save olive oil and what I get from chicken n' stuff.

Done this since March 15, lost more weight.

Saw dietician today.

She put me back on a lower fat version of Atkin's and added nuts, fruit and yogurt.

WTF???

She said that as I lose weight, the fat the I'm losing is circulating in my bloodstream and will be filtered out by my body and excreted, which may be another reason why my cholesterol was high. She wants me to get down to 135 pounds. HAAA HAAA HAA HAA!!!!!!!!!

Impossible. I was 128 when I was TWELVE. As I've said before, I'd be so skinny I'd fall through my own ass and hang myself (THIS I refrained from saying to her.) I tend not to tell other health care people I have been a licensed health care worker and have a vast store of knowledge about the human body right down to enzymatic fuction. Or that I own over 300 books. I like to see what they have to say before I start defending myself.

I actually said to her, well, I'd like to lose about ten more pounds, but maybe be somewhere between 150 and 160. I like the body I have now, and just because I may end up skinny doesn't mean I'm healthy.

Oooh, I POKED THE WEASEL. ( she is 5'0, maybe 99 pounds, all sinewy like a gazelle, and a runner. NOT a jogger. A RUNNER.)

POKE POKE POKE. POKITYPOKITYPOKE.

So I went home with my 'new' diet that I had been doing on my own, and she tweaked it a bit to include add the nuts and stuff.

We'll see how this goes. I'm thinking this is more of an intertesting experiment rather than a diet. So, I'm on a diet again, but I'll pop in and out to say hello.

Thanks for letting me vent! You guys are awesome.

Amy The Weasel Poker >>

Oh my GOD. My boyfriend went postal when I came home and told him this lovely news. He is so sick of seeing me struggle emotionally with my eating habits, because I've been doing so good. He was so pissed that he WALKED a half mile round trip for cigarrettes. (Had none because he's quitting). I call him Sloth Carcass for a reason. He shocked me today.

I'm not really ANGRY, but it's like WTF? I just spent $170 on groceries yesterday and a goo portion of them I can't eat now. And I had to go out AGAIN today after my consultation and get nuts, yogurt, flax seeds, fish, fish oil, fruit. And what the hell is up with blueberries being $2.99 a half pint ?!?! You know where Shaw's can put those berries ???

Ok, I feel better now...

Amy






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Registered: 11-03-2003
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 7:31pm
I agree. I read it 'skinny freaks' as people that are FREAKS about skinniness, and how that is the most important thing - being skinny. I don't think you would refer to someone as being a freak just because they were skinny...most of us here are losing weight to become normal, semi-skinny, or full-on skinny.


Amy

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Registered: 01-07-2004
Sat, 04-10-2004 - 7:22am
Nice to see someone who understood and didn't have to deal with an insecurity about it or even a guilty feeling of acting in such a manner. People have now become obsessed with being skinny. They fail to realize that skinny is objective and that our health is more important. You can be a nice 150 and the "freaks" still think you are heavy because the cookie cutter image is 120 and less. Fine example was America's Top Model..you have a very pretty gal on there and they called her a Plus Size Model because she was roughly 135. PLEASE!!! If that is plus size then what do they sterotype women who are closer to 200 or even more?? It is sad what women have allowed to happen and even worse that they have bought into that ridiculous view.

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Registered: 06-13-2003
Sat, 04-10-2004 - 9:03am
As I've stated before, people still call me fat. I still get looked down on when I go shopping. It never ends. You can never been skinny enough to please everyone. I am not pleased with my body AT ALL.

Zorbs (who borderlines on anorexic on bad days)

Edited 4/10/2004 9:05 am ET ET by zorbslovessporks


Edited 4/10/2004 9:07 am ET ET by zorbslovessporks

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Registered: 11-03-2003
Sat, 04-10-2004 - 10:42pm
I spoke to my best friend tonight who happened to call me from her bubble bath of all places. I told her about my experience with the dietician and how our views of how much I 'should' weigh differ. My friend knew exactly who I had seen and named her right off the bat. She said, " Yeah, she the one who thinks everybody needs to weigh 98 pounds...I never went back to see her - she was completely insufferable. "

Soooooooooo, I'm not the ONLY one who has had this experience with this particular person. I understand that dieticians have different views about how we should look, even amongst themselves.

I just found this really interesting !

Amy

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