Trying Again....... long....
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| Thu, 04-22-2004 - 1:08pm |
Been MIA for some months now. Good to see some familiar faces around here. I have struggled for the months that I stopped posting on here and have managed to regain the few pounds I'd worked so hard to lose. So now I've got more to lose, ugh! Wow, that was hard to admit out loud.
A little history behind the last few months:
We made a decision about 3 months ago to relocate to AZ. after moving from there 2 years ago to be near my family in CA. With the cost of living constantly on the rise here it became very apparent that we were going to have a very rough road trying to make it here.
AZ was familiar and I loved it there so that was the decision we made. Telling my family was excruciatingly hard for me and they took it about as bad as I thought they would. It took me almost 2 months to get up the nerve to say it out loud to them. Needless to say, during all this time I turned to food for the comfort and safety and even more so after the reaction I got from parents and sisters. I know that it's wrong,wrong,wrong. I've no one to blame but myself and I've come to terms with it and am going to change this. My parents have offered nothing in the way of support emotionally. Not even taking into account that it was a very hard decision to make.In fact, my mom is convinced that I woke up one morning and just decided that it'd be fun to move again. Wha? All they can see is that we're taking the grandkids away. Dont they think we know this??? Anyways, I've come to the conclusion that I'm doing the best I can in doing what's right for our family and I can only hope one day they will understand. I'm hoping that since we won't be entirely too far away (6hrs by car, my dad doesnt fly) that they'll come for holidays or vice versa. Right now I need to take care of me and get this weight off or there won't be any holidays for me to partake in. LOL
I've decided, after much deliberating to go back to Atkins. I did Atkins last year for about 4 months and had lost close to 40 pounds. Of course I quit making myself a priority and it all went by the wayside obviously regaining the weight. Ugh. So now I'm moving on, no looking back at past mistakes. I will forge ahead in my new lifestyle and quit looking at it as a diet but as a way of life. Dh has informed me that he will join me again with Atkins-he did beautifully on this plan. Doing this plan makes me feel wonderful through and through with lots of energy and mental clarity.
Anyways.....sorry this is soooo long. If you've gotten this far, thank you. I really like this board with all the information and support it has to offer. This is why I came back here. I've adjusted my goal by about 20 pounds to see how it goes. Once I get there and I'm not comfortable I'll adjust again. So hear goes nothing.....
~danielle~
227/227/150

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I think knowing that others are at the beginning stage as well is helping my motivation here. I seriously don't think I'd be able to do this without a place like this to help keep me going.
Good luck to you!
~danielle~
Looking forward to taking care of myself. I'm sure this will be an adjustment for my family but they'll get used to it. :)
thanks again!
~danielle~
Hehe Something smelling funny on the boards?
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