QOTW! June Confessions.............

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QOTW! June Confessions.............
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Mon, 06-14-2004 - 10:59pm

I've noticed that alot of us have been using the when-I'm-doing-well term lately (myself included).

 

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 06-14-2004 - 11:14pm

Confess?

  Shawna-- Proud Cl for 100 Pounds or More to Go 

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Registered: 12-02-2003
Mon, 06-14-2004 - 11:23pm
Speaking of confessions.....

I've had a few conversations with a couple of the FABULOUS gals on this board lately, and there's a grand total of ...um, well, four people, who I have shared my starting weight with. Now, I don't mean the weight I listed as my start when I used to post stats. I mean, the highest weight I was at, when I very first decided to "do or die", and the weight I never had any intentions of divulging because I didn't want to admit I weighed over 300 lbs.

So here's my confession. Last year on my goddaughter's bday (June 3) I weighed 362 lbs.



May 15th I weighed 268.

June 10 at the dr. office (day I started my period, too) I weighed 262.

Today at the dr, (post period) I weighed 258.

I am officially "outed", and feel better for it. 108 more to go.......

:-)

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Registered: 05-17-2004
Mon, 06-14-2004 - 11:40pm

Well thank God you started this post!

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Fear

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Registered: 12-06-2003
Mon, 06-14-2004 - 11:59pm

My confession is Im a big fat fake!!! I did WW and lost 11 pounds..AWESOME...then stopped..why?!?! I dont know..no good reason really..then I did Atkins for 4 days and lost 4 pounds!! AWESOME..why did I quit? no good reason..I am a loser and not in a good way..was suppose to have started counting points again the opther day..stillll havent started..so I am back to 280...what the crap..what the heck?!!?!? I am gonna screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


I still done feel any better crammit!!!

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Registered: 04-19-2004
Tue, 06-15-2004 - 12:43am
Okay, my turn....I have been REALLY REALLY upset that I can't break the 160 mark. I have been having period issues and was put on a new pill, so that may be contributing to it, but I have been going a little overboard in the carb dept. and my boo boos are getting closer together. I really want to get to 155, but I'm wondering if I'm just MEANT to be 160, no ifs, ands, or butts. I feel like a total loser because I was doing so well, and my loss has just kind of planed off, even though I'm in a 12 (and they are getting loose), I feel like if I stick to this diet, I will keep losing at the rate I was. Maybe I've slowed down because I'm just simply NOT going to lose any more weight. I think I want to get below 160 partly because I want to see if I can, and I'm a control freak when it comes to this. I've been really down lately and I'm very frustrated. Today the scale said 162, and I think that's because the time I eat now has changed - I'm not sleeping till noon after not eating for 14 hours and THEN weighing myself like I have been. I have been eating breakfast at five a.m and then sleeping for a few hours, THEN weighing myself. I don't know. I'm just frustrated.

Amy

265/162/155

PS - And thank you Mel for coming out of the 'closet'. You get a big stharky hug.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Tue, 06-15-2004 - 1:24am
I also have a confession, I have not been doing well for quite a while now. Part of the time I just haven't cared and have been tired of thinking about losing weight all the time. I think I've lost like an average of 1.5 lbs a month since like December. I know its better than nothing, but at this rate it'll take years to reach my goal that is pretty depressing. I'm not really sure what is up with me, I know something is keeping me from doing what I need to do...I just wish I could figure out what.

A big part of the problem is I've been eating lots and lots of chocolate. I have cravings for it every day. It's almost like an addiction for me. One bite is just not enough, but also one bite is too much because then I just go overboard. Its like I have no control over my body, my head is saying "NO, I don't want to eat that", but my arm is shovelling it into my mouth anyway. If it wasn't for that my calories every day would be right on track. This isn't really a new issue because I've always had a sweet tooth, but its almost like the more I try to be healthier the more I want the chocolate. I have a feeling this goes hand in hand with whatever mental/emotional block I'm having that's keeping me from losing.

The past 2 months I have been improving with everything else and getting back in the groove slowly but surely. I've upped my exercise by quite a bit. Now instead of just going to Curves 3 times a week I go 4 and I also do 30 mins of exercise on the ellipitcal trainer, recumbent bike, or walk about 5-6 times a week, and I do 20-40 mins of pilates 5 times a week. I've been making better choices in my meals and snacks, eating more veggies than I have ever before. That all sounds great, but there's still that problem of the chocolate. Oh, and it doesn't work for me to just not have it in the house, if I want it bad enough I'll go get some.

So, there you have it, that's why I've been stuck for so long.

Amanda

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Tue, 06-15-2004 - 2:35am
Sharky--I know where you are dear, and all I can say is don't give up. I wanted so badly to break through my personal "decade" and so many months went by and it didn't happen and I was so frustrated and thought it ain't gonna happen. But I spent 6 months just keeping on and you know what? It did happen! Sometimes it just takes a lot longer than we are willing to let it take, we get frustrated, throw up our hands, throw in the towel, and never make it. But I swear it will happen if you don't let those negative thoughts in. You are doing so well, keep it up!
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Registered: 06-13-2004
Tue, 06-15-2004 - 4:11am
Hi...

confess, confess... I am a scale-aholic lately...

My scale is a kilo one and drives me crazy (2.2 pounds to a kilo), and I get on it every morning! of course, nothing happens...psych!

My mantra for the week... I will not get on the scale...I will not get on the scale...

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Registered: 04-19-2004
Tue, 06-15-2004 - 6:28am
Thank you! I have been so down lately and I know that the loss will come but I have this immediate gratification problem...? LOL

I remember when I broke from the 200's and I thought I would have a stroke I was so excited...it seemed like for the first time, I realized that I was losing weight (65 pounds at that point)and that I was on my way, even though I didn't have a specific goal in mind...It was only when I created a profile on Atkins that I had a specific goal within a time frame, and I made myself INSANE for a few weeks, and stopped losing weight I was so stressed out. I mean, I really lost in in the sense that I would obsessivley count carbs, skip meals, weigh myself 500 times a day, and drive my poor boyfriend crazy because that's all I would talk about.

I have other things going on as well and I'm sure that's not helping....

And if it makes anyone feel any better, I have ZERO will power around chocolate -

1. The Cadbury Chocolate Creme Egg Incident plus a Russel Stover Coconut Egg

2. 3/4 pound of fudge in one bite

3. FIVE Lindt Truffles

4. 2 Cadbury Eggs last week

On more than one occasion, I have had a really bad day and have treated it accordingly - I used to go buy a Cosmo magazine and a one pound box of assorted choclate, hide in my room and crack out to candy and fluff.

Lovely!

Hugs,

Amy (cranky, disheartened shark)

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Registered: 06-16-2003
Tue, 06-15-2004 - 9:35am
Hello. My name is Sara B, and I am a cheater. I am so guilty of going to fast-food restaurants!!!! I cannot deal with it. I have been eating burgars!!! chips!!! french fries!! SODA!!!!(AKK!) BUT Today is a new day and I plan to do it right today!

Sara

~Sayruhb02

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