QOTW! June Confessions.............
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QOTW! June Confessions.............
| Mon, 06-14-2004 - 10:59pm |
I've noticed that alot of us have been using the when-I'm-doing-well term lately (myself included).

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Brenda,
I know that you think things are out of control but you will get it all back in order.
Heather and Shawn 7/16/04
Anyway, since I've been sick I haven't eaten much, but what I have eaten is way off my eating plan. Mostly I've had lots of granola bars (the high fat and sugar kind),ice cream, poptarts, and donuts. I haven't exercised at all for this past week also. Now I know this isn't the end of the world and I'm sick, so I could write it off on that. I still feel guilty though. With all I have learned about eating and living healthy, what do I do when I get sick....I start pigging out on high fat and calorie foods. Its not like all that fat and sugar will help me get better quicker. I could have eaten more fruit and veggies, drank more water, meditated or something. Instead I just went off the diet deep end. So I'm ashamed of myself and afraid to step on that scale. This is not going to set me back on my diet or life. I'll pick myself up and start again. Maybe that means more than the mess up. Maybe the fact I am willing to start over means I've crossed some sort of boundry because when I've gone off a diet in the past I'd always just say the heck with it and keep on pigging out. Not this time.
Okay, I've confessed and feel cleansed, lol. Now it is time to face that darn scale. ***death march playing in my mind*** :)
Vikki
~~Linda
~~Linda
Ok, now for my confession. When I first started, I would cheat all the time and feel all apprehensive about my food scale getting carried around with me everywhere. But, now that I've made some serious dents...50 pounds as of today!!....I'm proud and don't have to hide it anymore. I feel really good that I'm taking my life back.
I do have a big fear tho. I'm only 20 and I've been overweight since I was a kid. I always had some friends and I thought it was cool, especially in high school, bc I knew that they liked me and hung out with me bc they liked my personality yadda yadda yadda. So now I've been thinking about what life's gonna be like after weight loss is over. I am always going to be wondering "if I were 200 pounds heavier, would this person like me?". I think I may have to teach myself to trust ppl all over again bc I won't have this 200 pound wall around me. Usually learning to trust means opening ureself up to some really hard heartbreaks and ugly drama. I dunno if I can handle it bc that's what really packed the pounds on when I was in like middle school and stuff.
So this is mine. Wow. I feel better airing that. he he.
Amy ;)
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