I also made a decision

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I also made a decision
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Tue, 06-22-2004 - 8:03pm
As most of you know, I'm working on my doctorate in clinical psychology. While on maternity leave, I wrote a textbook for the abnormal psychology independent study class offered at the university. I had a really hard time writing the eating disorders chapter. It just really hit home for me. It kind of forced me to think about my behaviors and I really began to recognize that I have an eating disorder, binge eating disorder to be specific. Then the other day I was talking to my best friend from college who has struggled with anorexia since she was in high school (we're quite the pair. I always weigh at least double what she does, even at my lowest weight of 170 she weighed about 85). We were talking about raising our sons and the topic of what our mothers taught us about eating and our bodies came up. I was pretty amazed that we got the same bad messages about ourselves, internalized them, but then dysfunctional eating popped up in different ways for us. It was kind of a revelation, that she and I have the same problem, but that it expresses itself in different ways.

Anyway, I decided to go into therapy with someone who is a specialist in eating disorders. I start tomorrow. This was a really, really hard decision, especially since I do therapy and know at least half of the therapists in town. I found a PhD who only takes eating disorder cases and isn't affiliated with the university or the inpatient setting where I run groups. Unfortunately she shares a building with a psychologist that I do know, but I'm hoping I can get in and out without crossing her path.

In any case, I wanted to let you guys know what was up. I've been quiet lately, doing a lot of reflecting and chasing after my newly creeping son.

If you got through all of this, I appreciate it!

Erin

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Wed, 06-23-2004 - 9:58pm
DBT is awesome. I have never done it but a lot of my friends do. I've read about it and it sounds really neat. One of my friends who runs a DBT group is always talking about mindfullness and saying stuff like "feel your butt on the chair." She's great.

Thanks for all of the support, everybody. I appreciate it.

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Wed, 06-23-2004 - 11:17pm
I know many people know that feeling.

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Fear

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Thu, 06-24-2004 - 11:18am
DBT IS awesome. Our group talked about our 'triggers' and we ALL agreed the grocery store got us going. We were tempted to have a little field trip/class there just to see if we could control ourselves, lol. ( We didn't go, which was probably a GOOD thing.)

Amy

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Thu, 06-24-2004 - 11:44am
ME TOO! And girl, you better put SPF 9000 on before you go to Florida ! I saw the cute pic of you and your son - slather it on him too! LOL!

Have a WONDERFUL TIME ! I did!

PS - If you go to Epcot, and visit Canada, have a peanut and caramel covered apple for me. Strange request, but they are orgasmic.

Hugs,

Amy

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Thu, 06-24-2004 - 12:40pm
Actually we're going to Disney in California since it's right next door.

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Fear

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Thu, 06-24-2004 - 1:41pm
Duh..had I been paying ATTENTION, I would have remembered that it says DISNEYLAND not Disneyworld. I have also been to the one in CA, it's in Anaheim I believe. I was 8 and all I remeber is Mr. Toad's Wild Ride. Personally, I think Mr Toad was on the pipe. He just LOOKS baked...

There was something about the caramel apples that just did it for me. I don't eat them often (they are a huge pain to eat unless you cut them)and if I do, I make it about halfway into the apple. Basically, eat all the topping off and an inch of apple underneath...hee hee...

Amy

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Thu, 06-24-2004 - 2:59pm

Mr Toad and ALL of the Alice and Wonderland gang...I'll tell ya, whoever designed THOSE particular rides were doing some heavy duty hallucinogens!


I know what you mean about the caramel apples.

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