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I also made a decision
| Tue, 06-22-2004 - 8:03pm |
As most of you know, I'm working on my doctorate in clinical psychology. While on maternity leave, I wrote a textbook for the abnormal psychology independent study class offered at the university. I had a really hard time writing the eating disorders chapter. It just really hit home for me. It kind of forced me to think about my behaviors and I really began to recognize that I have an eating disorder, binge eating disorder to be specific. Then the other day I was talking to my best friend from college who has struggled with anorexia since she was in high school (we're quite the pair. I always weigh at least double what she does, even at my lowest weight of 170 she weighed about 85). We were talking about raising our sons and the topic of what our mothers taught us about eating and our bodies came up. I was pretty amazed that we got the same bad messages about ourselves, internalized them, but then dysfunctional eating popped up in different ways for us. It was kind of a revelation, that she and I have the same problem, but that it expresses itself in different ways.
Anyway, I decided to go into therapy with someone who is a specialist in eating disorders. I start tomorrow. This was a really, really hard decision, especially since I do therapy and know at least half of the therapists in town. I found a PhD who only takes eating disorder cases and isn't affiliated with the university or the inpatient setting where I run groups. Unfortunately she shares a building with a psychologist that I do know, but I'm hoping I can get in and out without crossing her path.
In any case, I wanted to let you guys know what was up. I've been quiet lately, doing a lot of reflecting and chasing after my newly creeping son.
If you got through all of this, I appreciate it!
Erin


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Thanks for all of the support, everybody. I appreciate it.
Mom
Fear
Amy
Have a WONDERFUL TIME ! I did!
PS - If you go to Epcot, and visit Canada, have a peanut and caramel covered apple for me. Strange request, but they are orgasmic.
Hugs,
Amy
Fear
There was something about the caramel apples that just did it for me. I don't eat them often (they are a huge pain to eat unless you cut them)and if I do, I make it about halfway into the apple. Basically, eat all the topping off and an inch of apple underneath...hee hee...
Amy
Mr Toad and ALL of the Alice and Wonderland gang...I'll tell ya, whoever designed THOSE particular rides were doing some heavy duty hallucinogens!
I know what you mean about the caramel apples.
Fear
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