HELP! A Little Help, Please !!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Fri, 06-25-2004 - 2:26am |
Help me !!!!! I don't know what's gotten into me, but the last week I have just been making alot of bad choices for meals. I've been eating cheese again, and steak, and last night I had half a pint of B&J's and two inches worth of Pringles. IN BED. I just looked at my pill pack and I'm due for my period next week, so that may be part of the reason...I was at 158.5 and have boinged back up to 160 or so...Oh, and lets not forget the pizza I had Tuesday night.
What is my problem ? Hormones ? Stress ? Sudden bout of culinary laziness ? Bored ? Sick of thinking about dieting? * I really don't think of this as a 'diet' anymore, because when I eat what I'm supposed to, and when I'm supposed to, I'm fine. I like what I get to eat, so it's not really a bummer or struggle and I'm not thinking, 'Oh when does this END so I can eat REAL food ?'. I AM eating real food, in the amounts I'm SUPPOSED to be that is healthy. Do I need to diversify my diet a little more? I don't know, because the Warthog On Crack eating habits I've gotten into lately are all emotional eating related. I'm not really hungry. Tuesday was a bad day because I built a bed and went to sleep finally at 3pm, after being awake for 20 hours, working, delivering a cruiser and shopping. I took a power nap and decided I was not cooking, and ordered PIZZA. Kyle thought I had a schizo episode or something because he asked me THREE times, was I sure ? And I was like, YES, AND we are getting TWO flavors of Ben & Jerry's too!
Well, that translated into two pieces of pizza (one slice of pepperoni-mushroom, one of ham, pineapple, broccoli and onion) and 1/4 cup of each ice cream.
And I had Chinese today! Hot & Sour soup, one piece of chicken teriyaki, one beef, 3 boneless ribs. Hello FAT! I feel like crap now because I have not had Chinese food since JANUARY. The MSG is killing me....
So, I'm running behind the wagon trying to get back on...For snack before bed this afternoon I had PB on whole grain toast with flax seeds, and a tomato-cucumber-basil salad at work around midnite, some almonds as a snack...and will most likely have an apple and celery later in the shift. I'm trying to do some damage control and I need to be picked up and brushed off as well.
And suggestions/reality slap/sympathy/butt kick/kind words/booing noises would be appreciated. I don't know WHAT I need, but I need it QUICK.
Thanks for enduring this ridiculous rambling diarrhea of words.
Amy
...Bark.

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It's okay...
me too!!
But this is just bizarre and maybe will make you laugh!
Last night (today??? the never ending day???) I was stranded in the airport in Amsterdam with my boyfriend because we missed the last train from there, to where I live (it is about 200 kilometers away. We missed the train by THREE MINUTES because he thought it was another time!!! All of the car rental places were closed, and there is no way to get back at all (we asked a taxi driver, but it was crazy expensive-- maybe 450 US dollars??). So... we had to sleep in the airport!!!
ugh... it was terrible, the chairs are all modern and slippy leather and have metal partitions designed so no one could ever sleep on them, even a contortionist... and about five am we were so cranky and uncomfortable and hungry!!! but everything inside was closed. Until we came around the corner and there was the big neon lights of a Burger King!! Halelujah! Halelujah! so... hello, whopper!!! etc, etc... ha ha ha...
oh, am delirious, have been awake two days now... we finally made it home this morning... but sometimes, a salad just won't do.
tomorrow, tomorrow...
just so you know, half way around the world, I am off the wagon for a little while too!
kristrin
Bren
Whoa!!! Stop and breath deep!! You're okay Amy. You know your in trouble and you're calling out SOS. Now all you have to do is take it one meal at a time. Slowly and realisticly get back to eating healthy. Don't waste another minute on thinking about what you've already eaten that you shouldn't have. That's over and done with. You can pull out of this. The first step is accepting that spanking yourself for messing up is just as hurtful as going off plan. It just makes getting back on your feet (or fins, lol) tougher. That's what your bingeosarus is counting on.
So,slap me some fin and start swimming. Yesterday isn't worth the re-wind, start working on tomorrow.
Hugs, kisses, and a big ol' kick in the booty for you!
Vikki ;0)
OK Amy, snap out of it.
Fear
I think I can put a finger on the problem Amy and I have gone through this sooooo mannnyyy times!
~~Linda
~~Linda
I must be doing better because there is still B&J's (Coffee Toffee Crunch) in the freezer and I have NO desire to eat it. Kyle would kill me anyway - it's his fave.
Hugs and sharky smooches all around, ladies! thank you for listening to me gripe, because I immediately felt better for posting it - confessional style1
You guys ROCK!
Amy
Amy,
Don't despair, I think we all fall off the wagon. I have barely started and gone off a few times, lol. I haven't even lost 20 pounds yet. I knew I could do so much better and just said, OK, enough is enough! I don't want to be fat! It's gotta be hard at the end when you are so close. You have come so far, don't give up yet girl! I'm yanking onto that shark fin of yours and barking at ya! I'm doing a little dance for ya with my udders shaking in the breeze, lol! You can do it!!
Heather
20 days
till I get married and off to Mexico!
Heather and Shawn 7/16/04
~~Linda
~~Linda
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