HELP! A Little Help, Please !!!!!!!!!!!!

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HELP! A Little Help, Please !!!!!!!!!!!!
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Fri, 06-25-2004 - 2:26am
*****ATTENTION : STAND BY FOR MAJOR RANT*****

Help me !!!!! I don't know what's gotten into me, but the last week I have just been making alot of bad choices for meals. I've been eating cheese again, and steak, and last night I had half a pint of B&J's and two inches worth of Pringles. IN BED. I just looked at my pill pack and I'm due for my period next week, so that may be part of the reason...I was at 158.5 and have boinged back up to 160 or so...Oh, and lets not forget the pizza I had Tuesday night.

What is my problem ? Hormones ? Stress ? Sudden bout of culinary laziness ? Bored ? Sick of thinking about dieting? * I really don't think of this as a 'diet' anymore, because when I eat what I'm supposed to, and when I'm supposed to, I'm fine. I like what I get to eat, so it's not really a bummer or struggle and I'm not thinking, 'Oh when does this END so I can eat REAL food ?'. I AM eating real food, in the amounts I'm SUPPOSED to be that is healthy. Do I need to diversify my diet a little more? I don't know, because the Warthog On Crack eating habits I've gotten into lately are all emotional eating related. I'm not really hungry. Tuesday was a bad day because I built a bed and went to sleep finally at 3pm, after being awake for 20 hours, working, delivering a cruiser and shopping. I took a power nap and decided I was not cooking, and ordered PIZZA. Kyle thought I had a schizo episode or something because he asked me THREE times, was I sure ? And I was like, YES, AND we are getting TWO flavors of Ben & Jerry's too!

Well, that translated into two pieces of pizza (one slice of pepperoni-mushroom, one of ham, pineapple, broccoli and onion) and 1/4 cup of each ice cream.

And I had Chinese today! Hot & Sour soup, one piece of chicken teriyaki, one beef, 3 boneless ribs. Hello FAT! I feel like crap now because I have not had Chinese food since JANUARY. The MSG is killing me....

So, I'm running behind the wagon trying to get back on...For snack before bed this afternoon I had PB on whole grain toast with flax seeds, and a tomato-cucumber-basil salad at work around midnite, some almonds as a snack...and will most likely have an apple and celery later in the shift. I'm trying to do some damage control and I need to be picked up and brushed off as well.

And suggestions/reality slap/sympathy/butt kick/kind words/booing noises would be appreciated. I don't know WHAT I need, but I need it QUICK.

Thanks for enduring this ridiculous rambling diarrhea of words.

Amy

...Bark.

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Sun, 06-27-2004 - 1:24am
Round and round and round we go, fling those udders to and fro!

A shark and a dancing cow wearing a banana skirt is quite a sight ! I know, I should cut myself a break and realize whatever damage I do, it's not like eating a whole bag of Oreos, and I can usually repair the damage in a day or two of eating right. I just don't want to fall into this trap of thinking this is the cool thing to do, and yo-yo back and forth with the same 2 pounds.

Here's to us barkin' and mooin' !

Hugs,

Amy

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Sun, 06-27-2004 - 1:31am
I know...you guys are the greatest...Always there to straighten my fins out and get my snout back in joint.

***snerksnerksnerk*** Yep, works fine now.

Not sure if you were up here this weekend, but it was Olde New England day in Woodstock. I did wagon rides for 8 hours. Felt like I had my own personal float in a parade. Surprised I didn't fall off the back I was so tired. I am in the middle of working 24 hours with a five hour nap this afternoon. ACK!!!! here, coffeecoffeecoffee!!!!


fcg,c xdf dfjgha (head just hit the keyboard)

Ooooooooooooooh boy, gettin' fruity!

Amy

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Sun, 06-27-2004 - 1:41am
That is so true, and I agree with Vikki. I already ate it, and I can't change that. what I can change, is preventing myself from eating more, and saying 'well, I already screwed up, might as well make it worth my while'.

Isn't it SUCH a little game we play with ourselves? I do it all the time, like in Borders Books, we will be there for 2-3 hours, and we have a routine/dance that we do. I always go in wanting coffee immediatley, and a chocolate truffle (just one) to enjoy whith my coffee whilst I peruse the bookie things. 9 times out of 10, I don not get the truffle. Sometimes I can just shut it off and be fine with it, but I wish I was cognizent of the thinking process that gets me into 'gotta have FIVE truffles or I won't be satisfied'.

Furry, if you are reading this and have any suggestions on how to derail this thought patten and get me to think with my 'wise' mind and not my 'emotional' one, I'd gladly take it. Is there DBT for chocolate addicts, LOL?

Amy

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Sun, 06-27-2004 - 10:47am
You're right, Amy that most of it is mental. Last Easter (2003) I went into a Brook's Pharmacy and bought a whole bunch of Easter candy (which in my opinion is the best candy of the whole year). My favorites are the chocolate covered marshmallow bunnies. Anyways, I binged on all that candy and probably haven't been to that Brook's since. Well, the other day I pulled into the parking lot of that store and all of a sudden I had cravings for chocolate. It was like wham! I need chocolate! At first I couldn't figure out why I was having this craving all of a sudden. Then I remembered the last time I was there and the Easter candy binge I had. This was OVER A YEAR AGO and just pulling in the parking lot made me crave chocolate. Well, I figured I'd better get the hell out of there, so I left the parking lot without going into the store, and the craving went away. My subconscience remembered the chocolate binge that I had and made me crave it. Isn't it amazing how the mind works?

~~Linda

~~Linda

 

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Sun, 06-27-2004 - 4:34pm
Agreed! Amazing and a bit spooky. Food and smell memory are pretty powerful things...especially smell. That is one of our oldest primeval senses, so to speak. I had to throw away a nearly full bottle of perfume because it reminded me of my ex-hole, and I had such a viceral response to it, it wigged me out. So in the trash it went.

Sometimes TV triggers it (wow, what a shock)and Easter candy definetly triggers it (if you recall this year's Cadbury Creme Egg Incident of mine...)

Oh well. Food will ALWAYS be an issue with me. Some days are just easier than others.

***Kicks Bingeosaurus in the face cause he's under computer desk sniffin' my flip flop***


Amy

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