New Here and First time Admitting

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Registered: 03-31-2003
New Here and First time Admitting
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Wed, 07-28-2004 - 11:34am
First time to admit out loud that I am medically considered obese.

I brought my 9 month old daughter to a check up and while everyone was out of the room I weighed myself and about fell on the floor. This is the most I have ever weighed and it broke my heart. I can't believe I let myself do this to myself, my husband and my girls. I stared at the numbers and thought if I just tilted a little bit it would give me better numbers, but I know better.

Instead of really being there for my dd's appointment I was still in my head thinking about that scale and about what I am doing to my life.

Last night I asked my husband if he would please go walking with me - he said no. I do have my girls that will walk with me - I just have to make myself do it. And my oldest (pushing 8) will help me with that.

A little personal info about me : I live in Wisconsin with my husband and 2 daughters. I am 24 years old and a stay at home mom. I have 100+ lbs to lose. I currently am at 280 and want to be around 160. I want to lose this weight so my family will stop looking at me like I am going to have a heart attack at any moment, so I can have the energy to play with my girls, to not feel like an embarassment to my husband and kids and to be able to get the cute clothes at the stores.

I am turning over a new leaf right now. I am going to start walking 5 times a week with my daughters (we have a trail). I am going to make better food choices. And give up so much soda (which I know is bad for me anyway). I really do need a support system and I am hoping to find something here. I also am going to start journaling. And I am buying a scale this weekend (not sure if that is a good idea).

My email is efm1100@hotmail.com

I will also be posting on the boards as much as I can.

~Elise

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Registered: 04-19-2004
Thu, 07-29-2004 - 12:13am
Hi Elise and welcome!

I can empathize with the whole act of stepping on the scale and having your heart broken - that is one of the best descriptions I have heard. Good for you for stepping up and turning a new leaf! Don't overdo it at first and get turned off to walking, but it will be a great way to spend time with your girls! (My boyfriend looks at me with horror when I ask him if he wants to join me for a walk/run. I have considered pushing him in front of me in his computer chair, but don't want any funny looks)

Nice to meet you,

Amy

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Registered: 03-31-2003
Thu, 07-29-2004 - 8:44am
Hi Amy, nice to meet you too.

I know what you mean about the computer chair - now if I could only get the couch some wheels and maybe a break I'd wheel my husband along with me. And I'm not even caring about weird looks because I'm sure I get them already.

:)

~Elise

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Registered: 07-25-2004
Fri, 07-30-2004 - 9:33pm
Congratulations for taking the step! I am a newbie, too, also have 130lbs to lose (i'm 265). I have a very hectic and stressful work schedule that drives me to fast food and no exercise. I am planning to commit to a plan (ha ha), but I need to think about what's realistic. Don't dislike yourself; that's the best advice I can give you. Keep your head up high and remember to take care of yourself!

Everyone here seems very supportive and they have been really helpful to me.

Good luck!

Contact me if you would like to talk.

Stephanie ;-)

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