I am so embarassed, that I feel sick
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| Tue, 08-10-2004 - 5:46pm |
well, today i got a phone call from a relative that I havent seen in at least a few years and she was telling me about the lapband surgery and how i need to get it and that since i dont have health insurance, that I should make a website asking ppl for donations and explaing that my life is on hold because of my weight etc. She even said that I should contact talk shows, to see if they would pay for it! She told me the name of a doctor and is calling in a few days to see what info i found out. I just happlily said "yeah,..uh huh" to whatever she said. Im so embarassed as it is about weight, i dont go anywhere and I do not let a camera get anywhere near me. i wont even look at myself in reflective surfaces like mirrors, computer screen, etc. So this does not help my mental state any. I swear I feel sick to my stomach. Sorry to lay all my junk on you guys, but I really need to talk to someone.
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The second for 23 years. I walked away from both. I still was muddle in it and now I AM FREE!!! I have taken control of me. I have been on this walk and diet since June. I have lost 27 pounds. Your relative means well but did not understand that you are well aware of the situation you live the situation. The comments were well meant and thought to be helpful. I had the "kind" comments also and they broke my heart. I was struggling with the weight issue and knew I was way overweight DUH! My comment is this and it works for me I will take care of the temple God gave me you take care of your life and we will see how each of us fares. You have to start somewhere at some time. It will be your time and when you do you will be fine. Two months !!!!! for me that is a miracle but it was my decision NO ONE ELSE'S. I am able to handle it now because IT WAS MY DECISION. You may need to lose weight but no matter what anyone says to you IT IS YOUR DECISION and when you start. Words hurt but it is your decision and only when you decide can you do it. I would love to be your weight loss partner. I will help you when you fall down and I hope you will help me when I stumble and fall.
Another thing that really gets me irritated about this relative is that why would she say to put on this website " my life is on hold, it is a disease, etc" I wonder if my mom has been talking about me to this relative. That means mom may be telling others too. That really upsets me. This realative could have called to say hi, how are you, not "you need to get surgery" She is supposedly getting it but she is not that big at all. I swear, some people have no tact.
Losing weight is such a large task, I hate when i diet because i never feel full, and i dont like most veggies, so i am always stuck. Where to begin? I guess I just need to set a date to start and go from there. I have a leslie sansone tape but i can only do like 5 mins of it, it is now shoved in a drawer because I am so ashamed because it was supposed to be such an easy workout.:-(
I also want to encourage you to pull out that Leslie Sansone tape that you have. If you can only do 5 minutes, then just do 5 minutes. Don't be ashamed! Her tapes are great (I have a few myself) and I remember having trouble finishing the tape in the beginning. But I kept at it, and soon 5 minutes became 10, then 15 and so on. YOU CAN DO IT!
Also, surgery isn't for everyone, and if you feel that it's not for you, don't let anyone pressure you into it. Many people have lost a lot of weight without surgery. If it's something that you want to look into, then by all means do, but do it because it's what you feel is right for you, not because someone tells you that you should do it.
I'm glad you found this board. There are a lot of great people here who will help you with your weight loss journey no matter what you decide to do to lose the weight. Come back often :)
~~Linda
~~Linda
As for the Leslie Sansone tape, if I do 5 minutes, then pause it, rest a min and then keep going, is that effective? I mean, it is better than nothing? I was just so mad at myself when I got it. everyone had said how easy it was to do, etc, then I couldnt even do it :-P
yes, I do not think surgery is for me. It wouldnt get to the root cause of my weight, and the complications scare me. I know a few ppl who did well with it, but I also knew people that had an aawful time, kidneys shutting down, gained weight back, etc.
:-)
~~Linda
~~Linda
Sara
As for the website deal. I do know how to make a website, but I don't even like people seeing how bad I look in town, much less all over the internet. Plus, I don't want surgery! The thought of it to me is really scary! It may have been different if I ever talked to this relative more than a minute over the past 3 years. Also, when she called it wasn;t "hi, how are you, etc,.. she just went right to the surgery and then she was like "I have to go, I am standing in line at a bank and they are closing?" To me, this doesnt seem like something to talk about it public, even if these people do not know me etc,
tommorow im dusting off that leslie sansone tape too,..wish me luck!
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