Pardon My Backslide

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Pardon My Backslide
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Wed, 08-25-2004 - 5:21pm
Well, I think I will be changing my screen name to Mooingshark. After several weeks of slipups, I have been carb crazy, and Monday nights party (beer, subs, beer, Doritos, beer) I am up to ...drum roll please... 162.5 pounds. I have managed to gain five pounds back, and it's my own fault. No one made me eat what I ate. I think that I was feeling a little too secure in my weight range and started to push the envelope. I ate steak, mac n' cheese and waaaaaaay too much cake yesterday because I had a hangover, and that's what I thought I needed. PFFFFFT!

So, today, as disgusted/horrified as I was, I got my butt out of bed while Kyle showered, took him to work, walked around town and back streets for about an hour at a good pace, went to the grocery store, got mostly meats and veggies, and am going back on Atkins for a while. This morning when I got home, I had a few ounces of ham from our ham that we baked the other day, and for lunch/dinner, I got a couple tiny lamb chops (I hardly EVER eat lamb, but I LOVE it)and broiled them with Malabar pepper(freshly ground - YUM!), sea salt and fresh rosemary, little bit of garlic. Never cooked lamb before, but it came out PERFECT, so I had the choplings with a small salad. Before that I had a couple TBSP of peanut butter cause I was starved.

SO, no more bread, cake, lo carb pasta, mashed potatoes...for carbs it's going to be veggies, berries, fat free plain yogurt, and apples. It's an all or nothing thing for me, and I can't just have 'a little' of something, like cake. The NANOSECOND it hits my mouth, a chemical reaction takes place and if cake was a drug, I'd be a junkie. Crack? NO, CAAAKE!

I have come too damned far to start going the other way, but I took a firm grip on it today and hopefully will keep this monstrous eating disorder I have under control. Hey, it may not be anorexia or bulimia (why puke up perfectly good food?!?) but the mindlessness that comes with eating things in inappropriate portions needs to be addressed.

Oooh! There's a fly on the keyboard. I think I'll eat it.

Anyone know the carb count for a small housefly?


Thanks for listening to my whining....

Amy (moooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo)

265/162.5/150

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Wed, 08-25-2004 - 7:42pm
No wonder you and I get along so well!

Ladyirish317


...There's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo, and it's worth fighting for...

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Wed, 08-25-2004 - 9:58pm
Scary, isn't it ?

Hey, when you going to post a new pic? You've lost weight, lets see it! I love the pic you have now - you look so damn cheerfull ! LOL! It is nice to see smiley faecs, yours, Shawnas...

It's hell trying to see while swimming with one eye - it's always squinting...*SNORT*

Okay, I'll stop.....LOL

AMy

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Wed, 08-25-2004 - 11:22pm
Amy,

Once again you made me laugh!! You can be Mooingshark if I can be Ari Oink (instead of Ari Elle!!) I love my new job, but in the 2 weeks that I have been there, I have gained 5 pounds, myself. I don't know what has come over me!! ...except to say that my co-workers and my bosses love to eat out. I did it for the first week or so to "fit in" with the girls, which has been alot of fun, but now I'm paying on the scale and in the tightening fit of my pants!! Last Wednesday was the last day of work for the girl I replaced and my boss took the whole office (10 of us) to Red Lobster and we all (except a couple beef eaters) had the snow crab. 1 1/2 pounds of the stuff!! Not something I get alot because it's kinda pricey, but my boss is a very generous guy!! OH MY GOSH!! I thought I was gonna explode!! I even had to give 3 huge crab legs to my boss. I don't know where he put it!! Tomorrow we're going out again to celebrate a couple of birthdays at the El Paso BBQ Company. I love the food (obviously...DUH!!!) but this is becoming a problem. Soon, I'll be wearing mumus to work!! No pants will fit!! I was a good girl on Monday and Tuesday and brought my lunch, but today I didn't and was informed that it was 25 cent hotdog day at Wienerschnitzel, so that's where we went. Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

Sorry didn't mean to carry on, but well, once I started... kinda like how I've been eating lately. Uncontrolled and steam rolling ahead!! I, too, have the problem of once I take a little nibble of something yummy, you might as well give it all to me. NOW.

So...now what???

Elle a.k.a. Miss Piggy!!!

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Thu, 08-26-2004 - 9:41am
Awwww..guys...I thought I was alone here this week. I have been eating like there's no tomorrow! Bread, macaroni, rice, bread, beer, pancakes, doughnut, pie, chocolate, etc.....

I seriously had a carb attack this week and I cannot get it under control for the moment. But Amy I'm glad you mentioned what a toll it takes on your body. I was wondering if that's what was dragging me down. I have been so tired all week. To the point I have fallen asleep at my desk several times and as soon as I get home that's all I want to do! SLEEP!!! Only waking to EAT! AAAAHHHH! I have gained 4 lbs this week and after all the hard work I've done. I'm so disappointed in myself.

I talked to my b/f last night about my problemo as if he hadn't noticed...which he said he did notice. But he really doesn't understand how awful I feel. It is an addiction...but how do we control it? I am so weak when it comes down to it. I tell myself.."Self if you want it bad enough, you would do it!"

So why can't I do it???

Ladies, I hope you all get the control back. Good luck bringing those #s back down!!

Jessica

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Thu, 08-26-2004 - 9:58am
I was going to wait until it could be a picture of me in my step-dancing dress, but several people have asked, so I don't know.

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Thu, 08-26-2004 - 5:48pm
*SIGH*

Okaaaaaaay............................

*drumming fins*

Amy

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Thu, 08-26-2004 - 11:55pm
oh amy, you are so pretty, hardly a butt-shaped head on you.
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Fri, 08-27-2004 - 12:05am
I've had a fairly bad week foodwise as well. Worked 4 days at my waitressing gig (vietnamese) which is not terribly unhealthy, because I would never work at a job where I was serving junk food to people - that would be a severe conflict of my beliefs, but they do have deep fried egg rolls and sugar and whole milk full fruit shakes, the ends of which are constantly being offered to me, as 1 "recipe" makes about 1 1/2 glassful. I get a free meal at work, but I try to keep it to a small bowl of noodles or vermicelli, which also has lots of veggies. I don't really like the fact that I'm eating white carbs, but it's better than diving headlong into a plate of egg rolls or quaffing a whole milkshake.

At least, despite having waitressed for 7 hours today, still managed to get to the gym and do a quick 10 minutes on the elliptical and run a mile on the treadmill. Plus a healthy dinner of BBQ chicken and at least 3 cups of vegetables. And a litre of water.

Yesterday, I had a planned cheat with a Swiss powdered sugar waffle with ice cream, but I had a dinner of a Greek salad and chicken souvlaki.

So...to summarize: jump RIGHT BACK on the wagon with healthy meals. Planned "cheats" are offset with plenty of exercise and followed by on plan meals.

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Fri, 08-27-2004 - 1:47am
*SNORT*

But you gotta admit an A$$ Head Shark IS a funny thought!

And yer purty, too!

Amy

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Fri, 08-27-2004 - 1:49am
Hear, hear! A good plan of attack!