Pardon My Backslide
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| Wed, 08-25-2004 - 5:21pm |
So, today, as disgusted/horrified as I was, I got my butt out of bed while Kyle showered, took him to work, walked around town and back streets for about an hour at a good pace, went to the grocery store, got mostly meats and veggies, and am going back on Atkins for a while. This morning when I got home, I had a few ounces of ham from our ham that we baked the other day, and for lunch/dinner, I got a couple tiny lamb chops (I hardly EVER eat lamb, but I LOVE it)and broiled them with Malabar pepper(freshly ground - YUM!), sea salt and fresh rosemary, little bit of garlic. Never cooked lamb before, but it came out PERFECT, so I had the choplings with a small salad. Before that I had a couple TBSP of peanut butter cause I was starved.
SO, no more bread, cake, lo carb pasta, mashed potatoes...for carbs it's going to be veggies, berries, fat free plain yogurt, and apples. It's an all or nothing thing for me, and I can't just have 'a little' of something, like cake. The NANOSECOND it hits my mouth, a chemical reaction takes place and if cake was a drug, I'd be a junkie. Crack? NO, CAAAKE!
I have come too damned far to start going the other way, but I took a firm grip on it today and hopefully will keep this monstrous eating disorder I have under control. Hey, it may not be anorexia or bulimia (why puke up perfectly good food?!?) but the mindlessness that comes with eating things in inappropriate portions needs to be addressed.
Oooh! There's a fly on the keyboard. I think I'll eat it.
Anyone know the carb count for a small housefly?
Thanks for listening to my whining....
Amy (moooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo)
265/162.5/150

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Then, two nights ago after work, I went out with a few colleagues for drinks and met the most charming Scotsman...three pints later...THREE pints!!!...and who knows how many onion rings..he gives me a sweet kiss and then hops on a plane for the far north. The things we do - I'm so ashamed.
Cheers
Lisa
Cheers
Lisa
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