Pardon My Backslide

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Registered: 04-19-2004
Pardon My Backslide
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Wed, 08-25-2004 - 5:21pm
Well, I think I will be changing my screen name to Mooingshark. After several weeks of slipups, I have been carb crazy, and Monday nights party (beer, subs, beer, Doritos, beer) I am up to ...drum roll please... 162.5 pounds. I have managed to gain five pounds back, and it's my own fault. No one made me eat what I ate. I think that I was feeling a little too secure in my weight range and started to push the envelope. I ate steak, mac n' cheese and waaaaaaay too much cake yesterday because I had a hangover, and that's what I thought I needed. PFFFFFT!

So, today, as disgusted/horrified as I was, I got my butt out of bed while Kyle showered, took him to work, walked around town and back streets for about an hour at a good pace, went to the grocery store, got mostly meats and veggies, and am going back on Atkins for a while. This morning when I got home, I had a few ounces of ham from our ham that we baked the other day, and for lunch/dinner, I got a couple tiny lamb chops (I hardly EVER eat lamb, but I LOVE it)and broiled them with Malabar pepper(freshly ground - YUM!), sea salt and fresh rosemary, little bit of garlic. Never cooked lamb before, but it came out PERFECT, so I had the choplings with a small salad. Before that I had a couple TBSP of peanut butter cause I was starved.

SO, no more bread, cake, lo carb pasta, mashed potatoes...for carbs it's going to be veggies, berries, fat free plain yogurt, and apples. It's an all or nothing thing for me, and I can't just have 'a little' of something, like cake. The NANOSECOND it hits my mouth, a chemical reaction takes place and if cake was a drug, I'd be a junkie. Crack? NO, CAAAKE!

I have come too damned far to start going the other way, but I took a firm grip on it today and hopefully will keep this monstrous eating disorder I have under control. Hey, it may not be anorexia or bulimia (why puke up perfectly good food?!?) but the mindlessness that comes with eating things in inappropriate portions needs to be addressed.

Oooh! There's a fly on the keyboard. I think I'll eat it.

Anyone know the carb count for a small housefly?


Thanks for listening to my whining....

Amy (moooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo)

265/162.5/150

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Registered: 07-16-2004
Sat, 08-28-2004 - 6:06pm
Amy darlin' I can so understand your plight right now. Last night I caved and got a chocolate bar and a small bottle of pop (3 musketeers and Dr Pepper...HUGE weaknesses for me) but the oddest thing happened... my teeth started to hurt! What's with that? I can eat carrots for days on end and nothin' but drink a small bottle of pop (which I never drank a lot of anyway) and I feel like my incisors need padding.

Then, two nights ago after work, I went out with a few colleagues for drinks and met the most charming Scotsman...three pints later...THREE pints!!!...and who knows how many onion rings..he gives me a sweet kiss and then hops on a plane for the far north. The things we do - I'm so ashamed.

Cheers

Lisa

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Registered: 06-16-2004
Sat, 08-28-2004 - 6:08pm
Ahh you met someone and he kissed you?

 

  Shawna

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Registered: 07-16-2004
Sat, 08-28-2004 - 7:11pm
Shawna dear...that's the story of my life! I meet a man just when either I'm moving or he's heading out into the great blue yonder. But I'll probably see him again - he may be doing some work for the museum I work with... oh I can only hope. I go weak for the Scottish accent.

Cheers

Lisa

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Registered: 11-04-2003
Sun, 08-29-2004 - 12:21am
Oh my gosh I know exactly what you're talking about........they really do just make you want more and more (carbs that is)....why do they all have to taste so darn good too?
 

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