OT - I am at my ropes end.

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Registered: 07-22-2004
OT - I am at my ropes end.
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Tue, 09-07-2004 - 8:20am

Hi all.


This is way off topic and I am sure its going to be long, but I needed to vent.


I had a decent weekend filled with house work and some real work.


My ex husband and his family have been in contact this week because one of his siblings passed away and was close to members of my family. Well in the news of all this happening I was informed he is getting remarried. Not only was I shocked I was really upset as well. They are planning all sorts of things when we had a civil ceremony. They are planning on having children when the thought even came up between us it was shot down and now I am trying so hard to have a baby by myself.


I am honestly hurt more than I can imagine. With this and the episode two weeks ago with the ex b/f that some of you know about I am barely hanging on. I stayed OP because honestly my stomach was turning so bad I couldnt even imagine eating a damn thing.


I cant understand why in the world I cant even seem to have a man notice me and he of all people is getting married again. He is marrying someone from his culture. He is from Lebanon and I know he married me to get his green card so purpose served I guess. He filed for a divorce 6 weeks after he got his citizenship. So he got what he wanted and moved on. The ex b/f well I was there because none of the other women were stupid enough to move to him. But I was.


I am seriously depressed, I am not thinking about going to the gym at all I want to lock myself in my room and forget I exsist.


J


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Registered: 03-28-2003
Wed, 09-08-2004 - 7:35pm
I believe in karma too ;-), bump

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