Sunday journals 10/17

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Sunday journals 10/17
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Sun, 10-17-2004 - 10:01am
Last day of the weekend ladies!

Breakfast-

coffee-2

Lunch-

Kinda skipped it DOH!

Dinner-

grilled cheese sandwich-2

bowl of Tuscan Bean soup with Sausage-5 (Recipe Section)

5 crackers-1

Snacks-

10 Ruffles light chips-0

latte-4

apple-2

kashi crackers-2

muffin-3

Total-21

So far, not enough veggies. Will work on it.


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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sun, 10-17-2004 - 10:59am
HELP ME, I AM BEING HELD CAPTIVE BY A BOX OF DONUTS! Maybe by posting here I will be eventually too embaressed to put this crap in my mouth.

B-two donuts

L-Chicken strips, 1/2 piece of bread

D-


Hugs, Brenda


Edited 10/17/2004 1:51 pm ET ET by mebrenda

Hugs, Brenda 

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Sun, 10-17-2004 - 11:43am
LOL Brenda...step away from the donuts :) Tell that husband not to bring them home anymore or your gonna start throwing them away lol

Hang in there Brenda :) I have to remind myself sometimes "Just because I pass on it right now doesnt mean that I cant have one in the future." I get that way with Qdoba,a mexican restraurant. I could eat it everyday and at every meal. I eat it like its going out of style. I eat it like someone is gonna take it right out my hands or something lol Can you picture me leaning over my burrito, shoveling it in like it might dissappear at any moment? That is me! Ive done well so far this week since Ive only been there once.

And Im very proud that you are hanging in there with me and the journaling. I was telling Tina last night that Im being silly right now. Im only half-@ssed doing a good job. I do just enough to get by but then at the end of the night, I go over by a few points. Im wasting alot of time, thought and energy on a mediocre attempt.

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Registered: 07-16-2004
Sun, 10-17-2004 - 12:04pm
BRENDA...JUST PUT THE DONOUGHT DOWN AND BACK AWAY SLOWLY!!!!!!!

I had a major breakthrough today and threw out a cupcake...but dang it hurt.

Sorry ladies I'm interupting your journals....if it helps any I've only had a coffee and am making some oatmeal.

Cheers!

Lisa

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Registered: 08-31-2004
Sun, 10-17-2004 - 12:23pm
LOL Dont worry about interrupting! Congrats on the breakthrough! I had one similar to that a while back. I was accidentally given a spare McD's cheeseburger...it was a rough day and I was readyt to scarf it down. But instead, I stuck with what I had planned and through away the spare burger. That hurt too but it still felt good :)
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Registered: 06-13-2004
Sun, 10-17-2004 - 3:14pm


Yep, I know exactly what the donut does to you. My boyfriend since September has had the cutest little habit of going out in the morning to buy us fresh danishes for breakfast! And it took me two weeks to tell him I just couldn't eat a damish every day!!!

Brenda, there is the funniest website ever, its called Put Down the Donut. It is a weight loss resource site, if you google it, it will come up. But I think you should just concentrate on having one donut free day, it will give you your power back! And Shawna, I think you are still eating in a healthy balanced way, even if your numbers go over a tiny bit.

speaking for myself... booo.I woke up at noon, and had a raging craving! So I ate the crappiest breakfast I have had all week! But I will try to redeam myself, I promise....

Breakfast of Champions:

two tablespoons cool whip light (ugh...my stomach!), celery with natural peanut butter


lunch: tomato salad w. cheese, cucumber, and vinegrette (again. I love it.)And a ffsf fudgicle


Dinner: lemon fish again with vegetables. Broc, zuchini, onion. And another ffsf fudgicle.

And that is IT for one day!

kristrin



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Registered: 09-02-2004
Sun, 10-17-2004 - 8:07pm
I recommend Put Down The Donut as well, but I am biased, I am a moderator on the forums over there.




Lilypie First Birthday tickers
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Sun, 10-17-2004 - 8:34pm
OK Girls I must be stupid because I looked over that Put down the donuts site (first four pages anyways) and I didn't get anything out of it. Please tell me what I was supposed to get out of it.

I know why I am fat. I know how to take the weight off, but I am just to lazy to do it. I have so little time for me that I do not want to deticate my me time to exercise. I hate it with a passion. I don't like to sweat and any sort of exercise makes me dizzy and sick to my stomach. I have just about decided to give up. Heck I'll die sooner and that's great. Then I don't have to put up with this screwed up life that I have created and have no one to blame but myself for. I hate my life. It takes every once of energy I have to not kill myself on a daily basis. I don't have the energy left to exercise. I am sorry if I am letting you all down. I have had a really crappy day. Nothing in particular I just don't want to go on. I am a failure at everything I do. My life is in the toilet. Why not die early from heart disease? They will only notice I am gone when there is no one left to do everything for them. My house is trashed. I spent the afternoon cleaning and then they came home. They do not respect me or what I do. I am so tired. Tell me what do you all do for motivation. I seem to be only able to see the down side here. Thanks for letting me vent! Hugs, Brenda

Hugs, Brenda 

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Sun, 10-17-2004 - 8:40pm
Brenda, Im so sorry that you are in this much pain. Im sorry that you think being dead is better. I think you should focus on one thing right now. Whether its married life, your children, your weight, your job...whatever. You sound VERY overwhlemed right now. Just know that we love you and that we are thinking of you. We have never met you but we know just from your words that you are a wonderful person. I think that you should possibly look into seeking some counseling for yourself. Whether your children listen to you or not, they need you around and you need to be strong for them. Always feel free to email me :)

And I just heard this on the TV and was thinking of you Brenda.

I Hope You Dance

Leann Womack

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder

You get your fill to eat

But always keep that hunger

May you never take one single breath for granted

God forbid love ever leave you empty handed

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean

Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens

Promise me you'll give fate a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance

I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance

Never settle for the path of least resistance

Living might mean taking chances, but they're worth taking

Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth making

Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter

When you come close to selling out, reconsider

Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance

(Time is a real and constant motion always)

I hope you dance

(Rolling us along)

I hope you dance

(Tell me who)

I hope you dance

(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)

I hope you dance

(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small

When you stand by the ocean

Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens

Promise me you'll give fate a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance

I hope you dance

I hope you dance

(Time is a real and constant motion always)

I hope you dance

(Rolling us along)

I hope you dance

(Tell me who)

(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)

I hope you dance

(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)

I hope you dance

(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)

(Where those years have gone)




Edited 10/17/2004 9:01 pm ET ET by pickle_puss

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Sun, 10-17-2004 - 9:12pm
You'll probably take this the wrong way but you should consider getting some professional help. I mean it in the nicest possible way.




Lilypie First Birthday tickers
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Sun, 10-17-2004 - 10:11pm
Thanks you guys. I am getting help. I see a therapist every other week. I am also taking Lexapro, Buspar, and Trazadone.Somedays I just get over whelmed. Most especially when I get tired. I busted myself back to two days a week a year ago and working so many extra hours in the last two weeks has just worn me out. I am sorry I shared so much with you. I know that this is not that kind of board. I guess I just got too comfortable.

Thanks Again! Hugs, Brenda

Hugs, Brenda 

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