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| Fri, 11-19-2004 - 11:32pm |
You know what I realized today? I was doing the grocery shopping, and usually at this time of the month (PMS), it's next to impossible to walk through a grocery store without ending up with some junk food when you walk out. And today, I had NO cravings whatsoever!! Nothing even appealed to me at all! I don't know if it's because of all the exercise and effort I'm putting into my diet, or what, but I could get used to this! I still had my pizza for dinner, but no beer because I was going to bum one off Andre, but of course this is the one night he doesn't have any in the fridge! I had a hot chocolate instead, and it was actually too sweet for my tastes...I never thought I'd say something like that! But I guess sugar tastes sweeter when you don't normally eat it. It's hard for me to believe, but I actually probably could have gone without my cheat this week and not even missed it! I was in Blockbuster renting a movie tonight, and as I was standing in the long line, I was standing there in front of the strategically placed candy stand, with all kinds of stuff that I used to eat all the time...Hershey's chocolate, Pringle's chips, stuff like that, and it crossed my mind that it WAS my cheat day, so I could have picked up a treat...but I didn't even WANT to! It was shocking to me. When I went into Pizza Pizza to get my cheat slice, I thought about putting it into a combo and getting chips and pop with it, but I didn't WANT to! Me? not wanting CHIPS? During PMS??? Wow, someone must have invaded my body!!
I think one of the reasons for this is that I can now have my cheat guilt-free. I know that I've worked hard all week long, and so I feel that I deserve one day to be a bit more relaxed. Before, I would try so hard to stick to plan, but since all the "bad" foods were forbidden, I wanted it even more, until PMS week when I would just cave in and cheat. And that started the ball rolling, and I would binge on even more crap I am not supposed to eat, and I didn't know how to stop. But now that I have one day of the week that I can look forward to eating something "forbidden" in moderation, I don't have reason to want it during the week. It is so refreshing to not have to hide my cheat food from Andre because I feel so guilty and ashamed for eating it! I just think it's funny that now that I allow myself to cheat in moderation, I don't even want it nearly as much as I did before!
So I think what I might do is just do my planned cheats every other week, and see how that goes. This is only my second planned cheat day, but I feel that I could have done without my cheat today. Part of me feels that I might lose a bit of momentum if I have a cheat day every week.
How many others have planned cheats? How do you feel it works for you? ~Sabrina
I think one of the reasons for this is that I can now have my cheat guilt-free. I know that I've worked hard all week long, and so I feel that I deserve one day to be a bit more relaxed. Before, I would try so hard to stick to plan, but since all the "bad" foods were forbidden, I wanted it even more, until PMS week when I would just cave in and cheat. And that started the ball rolling, and I would binge on even more crap I am not supposed to eat, and I didn't know how to stop. But now that I have one day of the week that I can look forward to eating something "forbidden" in moderation, I don't have reason to want it during the week. It is so refreshing to not have to hide my cheat food from Andre because I feel so guilty and ashamed for eating it! I just think it's funny that now that I allow myself to cheat in moderation, I don't even want it nearly as much as I did before!
So I think what I might do is just do my planned cheats every other week, and see how that goes. This is only my second planned cheat day, but I feel that I could have done without my cheat today. Part of me feels that I might lose a bit of momentum if I have a cheat day every week.
How many others have planned cheats? How do you feel it works for you? ~Sabrina

"So I think what I might do is just do my planned cheats every other week, and see how that goes."
SABRINA! WOW that is a Great Idea!
I now eat small portions. I use to eat like a big truck driver. 2 and 3 plates heaping with food. To train my self to eat smaller portions I went down to 1 plate heaping with food and worked that way for about a year. Then I cut that one plate down to half. Now I am down to cutting the half into half yet again! And it has worked for me.
I always felt embarrassed about eating out. I kept thinking look at that fat-a$$ed person sittng down to eat! Watch her chew her food! I was totally ashamed.
But now I eat less than everyone around me. I feel proud when I say..."I just can't eat another bite! I am big, but I don't eat big!" And the tiniest person with us is shocked, because they assume that I would eat like some pig...I guess. They don't say anything, but you can see it in thier faces.
Sussie_Q