I started realizing in college, but years of depression kept it kind of out of my consciousness (of course, I couldn't really deny it, but I didn't really acknowledge it either).
After denying for years that my clothes were slithering up a size every year, the truth smacked me in the face one day as I was driving. I thought to myself, 'What is that touching my boobs?'
It was my stomach.
So, after I resumed breathing, I realized that not only would my seatbelt eviscerate me if I were in an accident, I was simply NOT meant to be this big. I topped out at a size 22, 265 pounds. I may have weighed more, but that was the last weight I saw because I couldn't bear to look after that.
So, 4 years, 110 pounds later, I found my way back to a size 10/12, 156 pounds, and the seatbelt sits on my hipbones and doesn't touch my stomach AT ALL. I weigh less than I did when I graduated high school in 91, and I'm 31 !
I've been "tubby" all my life. My parents tried so hard to make me realize what was happening, but it didn't really sink in. In high school, I tended to use my weight as a shield, but even then I wasn't truly obese. I was only about 165 or so, but in high school, that's a lot. I remember, very vividly, there was once I guy I really liked in high school who was also a good friend of mine. He was dating this total B and was always complaining about her. I finally asked him why he was dating her and why didn't he just date me instead. He said (honest truth): "I do like you a lot more than I like her but she is just so much thinner and prettier than you are." That's really when it hit me, but I was too depressed to care. After I got married at 19, I put on 70 lbs in the first 2 years mainly because my ex-husband loved to eat out so much, and then my ex left me for a 98 lb nothing. No help there. Since then, 6 1/2 years now, I've kept on gaining slowly, finally topping out at 276. While on vacation last month to my hometown, I saw an old friend that I haven't seen in 2 years. She had lost almost 90 lbs and I couldn't even recognize her. That's when I realized the difference the weight loss would make in my life and I became truly digusted with myself. So here I am today, down 23.5lbs in 6 weeks (actually, I think it's probably more than that, but I still can't poop)!!
Well, my weight gain has been gradual over the course of the last ten years. I gained sixty pounds during my pregnancy with my daughter (my only child) and after giving birth, still had 25lbs to lose. I had gone from my pre-pregnancy weight of 154 and a size 10, into a size 14. By the following year, I was in a 16, but still was not concerned. I figured I could lose it at any time. A year or two after that, I was in an 18. That's when I first started feeling concerned, but made no real effort to lose the weight. My weight fluctuated a bit for awhile. Nothing dramatic, but I'd lose 10lbs here, and then gain 14 back. It's only been in the last year or so that I have become really upset about my weight, and started to realize that changes needed to be made, or I'd just keep gaining. I am in a size 20/22 now, depending on the brand. As a child, I recall overhearing a conversation between my aunt and my mother about a friend who had gained weight and wore a size 20. I was shocked because I didn't even realize that such a size existed. I think having to wear that size myself was the real eye opener for me.
Now that I know what QOTW is I can answer this question....
When I was 14, I kind of knew I had wider hips than most girls but I was in a size 14 and I looked good in my Mod Clothing. I could get jeans in my size and no one ever said anything that I can recall.
Then I got pregnate with my first child at 21 and really didn't lose the weight much. Got on the pill right after her birth and gained a tad more....still I could get into 16's or 18's....
Then I had another child and really got big! And I didn't loose the weight. I knew I was big then. But I thought what the heck I will start loosing weight next year and I will enjoy all this mexican food now. Then another pregnacy.
Now at size 5 in Womens clothing I am ashamed of how big I have become. My husband still loves me.
But what gets me is how some men like big women. I get hit on at work more than a big fat woman should.
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After denying for years that my clothes were slithering up a size every year, the truth smacked me in the face one day as I was driving. I thought to myself, 'What is that touching my boobs?'
It was my stomach.
So, after I resumed breathing, I realized that not only would my seatbelt eviscerate me if I were in an accident, I was simply NOT meant to be this big. I topped out at a size 22, 265 pounds. I may have weighed more, but that was the last weight I saw because I couldn't bear to look after that.
So, 4 years, 110 pounds later, I found my way back to a size 10/12, 156 pounds, and the seatbelt sits on my hipbones and doesn't touch my stomach AT ALL. I weigh less than I did when I graduated high school in 91, and I'm 31 !
Amy
I've been "tubby" all my life. My parents tried so hard to make me realize what was happening, but it didn't really sink in. In high school, I tended to use my weight as a shield, but even then I wasn't truly obese. I was only about 165 or so, but in high school, that's a lot. I remember, very vividly, there was once I guy I really liked in high school who was also a good friend of mine. He was dating this total B and was always complaining about her. I finally asked him why he was dating her and why didn't he just date me instead. He said (honest truth): "I do like you a lot more than I like her but she is just so much thinner and prettier than you are." That's really when it hit me, but I was too depressed to care. After I got married at 19, I put on 70 lbs in the first 2 years mainly because my ex-husband loved to eat out so much, and then my ex left me for a 98 lb nothing. No help there. Since then, 6 1/2 years now, I've kept on gaining slowly, finally topping out at 276. While on vacation last month to my hometown, I saw an old friend that I haven't seen in 2 years. She had lost almost 90 lbs and I couldn't even recognize her. That's when I realized the difference the weight loss would make in my life and I became truly digusted with myself. So here I am today, down 23.5lbs in 6 weeks (actually, I think it's probably more than that, but I still can't poop)!!
Aggie
276/252.5/135
Now that I know what QOTW is I can answer this question....
When I was 14, I kind of knew I had wider hips than most girls but I was in a size 14 and I looked good in my Mod Clothing. I could get jeans in my size and no one ever said anything that I can recall.
Then I got pregnate with my first child at 21 and really didn't lose the weight much. Got on the pill right after her birth and gained a tad more....still I could get into 16's or 18's....
Then I had another child and really got big! And I didn't loose the weight. I knew I was big then. But I thought what the heck I will start loosing weight next year and I will enjoy all this mexican food now. Then another pregnacy.
Now at size 5 in Womens clothing I am ashamed of how big I have become. My husband still loves me.
But what gets me is how some men like big women. I get hit on at work more than a big fat woman should.
Sussie_Q
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