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Tue, 12-14-2004 - 2:17pm

Hi all. I've been lurking on the board and think this is where I need to be.
My name is Michelle. I just turned 25 and I am getting married next year. Over the last few years throughout college and since I've gradauted I have gained weight. A lot of weight! This morning I weighed in at 250.5 pounds. If I recall I weighed about 180 or so when I got to college. If you do the math that is 70 pounds gained throughout college and in the year I've been out. I have never told anybody my weight before! Even as I type it I want to go back and delete it, but I won't live in denial anymore.

I have never been skinny and don't aspire to be. But what I do aspire for is to be comfortable in my body again. I think I would be happy at 150-160. I look at old pictures from when I weighed 160 and I think "if only." Ironic how I thought I was fat then and I see those pictures and think I look so skinny. If I can walk into an average store and buy clothes instead of having to go to plus size stores. If I can feel comfortable wearing a bathing suit and a sarong on the beach. If I'm not afraid of taking a picture, if I'm up to going out and meeting new people, then I would truly know happiness. I do not suffer from any health problems-yet but I know if I continue down this path I will. My mother is 350+ pounds and she has high blood pressure and heart problems. I fear every year that one day I will lose her because of it. I don't want that to ever be me. I don't want my future children or grandchildren to fear that.

I know the ideals for eating and exercise. I am very educated in nutrition. I don't believe in fad diets, low carb or diet pills. What I lack is support and willpower. Deep down I know I have the willpower. I will succeed this time and I will live a healthy life. I was doing well in my eating up until a few weeks ago. I was sick and didn't feel like preparing my meals and I fell off the wagon. With the holiday season approaching and the holiday baking I love to do, starting now would be setting myself up for failure. It is just too tough to start out during a stressful time. So I have set a start date for myself that is before the new year and after my holiday obligations. I have never joined weight watchers before but I am looking into it simply because I need all the support and accountablity. I look forward to getting to know you all and will be coming to this board often for support. I wish us all luck in our weight loss endeavors!

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Registered: 11-11-2004
In reply to: blueeyedtxcutie
Tue, 12-14-2004 - 4:46pm

Hi, and welcome here, Michelle! I'm glad you've come out of lurkdom to ask for the support you feel you need. We all need support, and you'll find it here! You're definitely on the right track... support, research, and recognising what could be coming down the line if you don't get under control!


I did WW last year and it really does work... I just got lazy and tired of thinking about food all the time! Here I sit still not back on track and 30 lbs heavier because of it. I'm with you on waiting until after the holidays to get going again, because there's just so much room for "failure" at this time of year.


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Registered: 08-31-2004
In reply to: blueeyedtxcutie
Tue, 12-14-2004 - 5:05pm
Hi there Michelle!
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Registered: 06-13-2004
In reply to: blueeyedtxcutie
Tue, 12-14-2004 - 10:44pm

hello! hope you like the boards. It is a good goal to just do it the slow and healthy turtle way, but man o man, can it seem like eternity sometimes to see the results you want. patience is a virtue... I don't have!

I have almost given up on willpower myself... I need to reprogram my brain!

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Registered: 12-10-2004
In reply to: blueeyedtxcutie
Wed, 12-15-2004 - 1:05am
Hi! You and I sound a lot alike, although I'm a fair amount older than you. I talked with my doctor yesterday and told her that in this country, if there is anyone who doesn't know how to eat right, they've been living in a cave. There has been so much info in all modes of communication that it would be amazing to find someone who didn't know how to eat right. Like you, I don't go for the low carb/high protein. I also won't count a single calorie or fat gram. I won't weigh my food or measure it out. I have been that road for decades and won't do it even once more. Today was my first day of not eating garbage food (tons of candy, doughnuts, etc. - and I mean tons!) and I was in tune to my body, when I was hungry, ok, thirsty, etc. My doc (a WONDERFUL woman!) told me not to take anything but water in my car, since that's where I eat the most. Today was the first day for that. It felt weird, but when I felt panicky, I sang Christian songs, praises to God, and felt so much better! I told my husband tonight how much I weighed. I was crying so hard. I felt after 18 years of hiding my weight number from him, I really needed to tell him, especially since I was so upset lately about it. What an angel I married. He said he loved me anyway and it never mattered to him that I was overweight. But he feels awful that I am so upset and has said we will take care of each other and help each other. I went to Curves tonight too and it felt so good. So, long story short, I'm so glad you are tuned in to what you don't want and where you are. It's liberating, I think. Kristi :o) <><
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Registered: 01-04-2004
In reply to: blueeyedtxcutie
Wed, 12-15-2004 - 2:31pm

Welcome to the board, Michelle! This is a great place for support. Like you, I knew all the things that I had to do to lose the weight, but without the support, I just couldn't do it. Since joining here last January, I've lost 43 pounds and it feels great. I have a long way to go (and am currently struggling with getting back on track, although I haven't gained any weight back, thank goodness!) but I know that if I stay here, these wonderful ladies will help me reach my goal.

~~Linda
246/203/199(for now)

~~Linda

 

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Registered: 05-17-2004
In reply to: blueeyedtxcutie
Wed, 12-15-2004 - 10:59pm
Hi Michelle and welcome.

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Registered: 03-21-2003
In reply to: blueeyedtxcutie
Thu, 12-16-2004 - 2:47pm
Wow Michelle! Sounds like you have some great support! That will really help you! I like to keep that weight number to myself - I don't think I have the guts to tell my hubby of 20 years! I just feel kind of disgusted in myself for letting it get so high - maybe when I have lost it I will tell him - I dont know, that is really hard for me!


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