Hit the wall, floor, ceiling-289 pounds

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Hit the wall, floor, ceiling-289 pounds
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Wed, 12-29-2004 - 11:17pm
I haven't been here in a little while, got really busy. I saw my doc about two weeks ago and the scale recorded me at 289 pounds. That was a 9 pound weight gain in three weeks. I started sobbing right there at the scale and sobbed all the way to the exam room, where I was unable to stop sobbing. My doc came in after the nurse left and I just told her everything. All my eating in the car, the huge amounts of sugar that I take in. I told it all. I also owned up to my responsibility in how I got here. Though it's true I'm mildly hypothryroid, have PCOS and insulin resistance, that's not how I got to almost 300 pounds. I got here by all the crap I eat, and it's a lot! So my doc (and I just LOVE her!) told me to stop eating in the car. I thought, what? no measuring, no counting, just stop eating in the car? I can do that! So I did. And the results are that I feel smaller. I don't weigh myself but she will when I see her in another week or so. She wanted me to try to lose a pound a week, but as I said, I don't weigh myself. The not eating in the car has led me to more awareness of when I want to eat. I have had one day where I was in a frenzy about eating sugar food but got right back on track. And I am going to Curves three days a week ( I just love that). So gals, this is reality time. I have never felt so socked in the gut as I did when I was on that scale. I knew what I was doing was not condusive to weight loss, but I was in denial that my eating like that was going to cause gain. I really kept my face turned from it, that is until I had to face it, on that scale. Also, I felt compelled, after 18 years of hiding my weight number from my husband, I felt compelled to tell him. I'm a lucky woman, let me tell you. My husband said, "So what is changed? You are still the same person as you were before you told me. I love you anyway and I think you're pretty. The only I want is for you to be happy." Gals, I felt a whole lot of condemnation I had put on myself just lift away. So that's my tale. What's cookin' with the rest of you? Kristi :o) <><
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Thu, 12-30-2004 - 6:49am
How funny, same story, different name!! I too have an awesome husband. :-) Stephanie 280/24?/170
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Registered: 08-31-2004
Thu, 12-30-2004 - 10:28am
Kristi, it sounds like you have been through a journey lately.
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Registered: 03-31-2003
Thu, 12-30-2004 - 2:10pm

Kristi,

I'm so sorry you had to feel so bad, but I'm so happy that you're using it as a tool for big, positive changes! You rock!!! Good luck. (And Curves is great. I have several friends who love it.) As for your hubby and doctor, you are very lucky!!! I'm incredibly lucky too, my husband doesn't even notice my extra weight. He's my biggest fan. (lol, no pun intended! :)

Cheers,
C

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Registered: 05-14-2003
Thu, 12-30-2004 - 9:59pm

So glad to see that you are back on track. I applaude you for taking a big step to stop eating in the car. Let us know how you are doing.

Machelle'
308/243/160

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Registered: 10-20-2004
Fri, 12-31-2004 - 2:06pm
Good for you not putting all the blame on PCOS I too have PCOS and its so easy to use that as a handicap.
once we relize what it setting us back and what helps us this things flow a lot better
Good luck with everything Im sure u will love curves
and good for you husband be so supportive
Heidi
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Registered: 05-17-2004
Sat, 01-01-2005 - 7:44pm
It sure sounds as if you have had a lot of self discovery recently.

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