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| Sat, 01-29-2005 - 1:50pm |
Hey, gang. I realized something today. I have lost my drive and motivation to succeed! And of course, as we all know, when that starts to happen, the pounds start to creep back. And that is exactly what has started to happen. I have about 40-45 more pounds to lose, but somewhere along the line, I've gotten lazy about my diet and exercise. It's way too easy to make an excuse to not exercise...for me, my main one is that it's friggin' cold outside! Well, spring is just around the corner, so I plan to start doing my home exercises now(exercise tapes, floor exercises, etc.) to get ready for regular walking as soon as it gets a bit warmer out. I would still love to join a gym, but unfortunately, I've been having a really hard time finding a good RPN (Registered Practical Nurse) job right now. However, I'm making big changes in that area, too.
I moved in with Andre in July, but jobs are more scarce here (Peterborough, Ontario), and don't pay as well as a jobs closer to Toronto. I was living in Oshawa before I moved here, and there are lots of opportunites in that area. So I've made the decision to start looking for jobs there. Yesterday I went and dropped off a bunch of resumes to agencies and nursing homes. Unfortunately, hospitals here are all cutting back nursing jobs instead of hiring much needed nurses, thanks to our crappy government. But I still have a chance to get into agencies and nursing homes, so I have a lot of hope I'll get a job. When I do get a job there, it's going to require a lot of change for me. The commute would be over an hour from here, so I'll probably be getting a furnished room somewhere closer so I don't have to spend so much money on gas and wear and tear on my car. I hate the idea of moving AGAIN, especially because it would mean being away from Andre most of the time. But right now I'm willing to make sacrifices to get ahead in my career, and Andre is busy all the time right now with schoolwork anyway. This will only be for maybe a year or so, and it will probably be good for our relationship in the end, but that doesn't really make the idea of being away from him more appealing.
So anyway, that's what is going on with me. I haven't been here much lately, probably because I've been feeling more and more ashamed that I can't seem to get into the groove of exercise and eating right. I can't promise I'll be here every day, but I'm definately going to make the effort more.
One of the things that made me come to this conclusion is that my sister and I went to a bridal show yesterday. I thought it would be fun to try on a wedding dress, so I picked a beautiful one in a size 14. Considering I used to be a dress size 20, and I'm fitting into size 14 pants, I thought it would probably fit, and it almost did. It just didn't zip up all the way at the back because I have a large chest. But I still felt so beautiful wearing it. It just reminded me that I have promised myself that I WILL be at my goal weight on my wedding day. We have tentatively set the date for October of 2006, and so it's not like I don't have time, but if I keep going at this rate, I'll never reach my goal! So I'm making a promise to myself right now that I am GOING to get back on track NOW!
I'm very happy that I have an opportunity to share my weight loss journey with all you gals (and maybe some guys??) and I really want to take advantage of that.
~Sabrina 264/208/160-165
I moved in with Andre in July, but jobs are more scarce here (Peterborough, Ontario), and don't pay as well as a jobs closer to Toronto. I was living in Oshawa before I moved here, and there are lots of opportunites in that area. So I've made the decision to start looking for jobs there. Yesterday I went and dropped off a bunch of resumes to agencies and nursing homes. Unfortunately, hospitals here are all cutting back nursing jobs instead of hiring much needed nurses, thanks to our crappy government. But I still have a chance to get into agencies and nursing homes, so I have a lot of hope I'll get a job. When I do get a job there, it's going to require a lot of change for me. The commute would be over an hour from here, so I'll probably be getting a furnished room somewhere closer so I don't have to spend so much money on gas and wear and tear on my car. I hate the idea of moving AGAIN, especially because it would mean being away from Andre most of the time. But right now I'm willing to make sacrifices to get ahead in my career, and Andre is busy all the time right now with schoolwork anyway. This will only be for maybe a year or so, and it will probably be good for our relationship in the end, but that doesn't really make the idea of being away from him more appealing.
So anyway, that's what is going on with me. I haven't been here much lately, probably because I've been feeling more and more ashamed that I can't seem to get into the groove of exercise and eating right. I can't promise I'll be here every day, but I'm definately going to make the effort more.
One of the things that made me come to this conclusion is that my sister and I went to a bridal show yesterday. I thought it would be fun to try on a wedding dress, so I picked a beautiful one in a size 14. Considering I used to be a dress size 20, and I'm fitting into size 14 pants, I thought it would probably fit, and it almost did. It just didn't zip up all the way at the back because I have a large chest. But I still felt so beautiful wearing it. It just reminded me that I have promised myself that I WILL be at my goal weight on my wedding day. We have tentatively set the date for October of 2006, and so it's not like I don't have time, but if I keep going at this rate, I'll never reach my goal! So I'm making a promise to myself right now that I am GOING to get back on track NOW!
I'm very happy that I have an opportunity to share my weight loss journey with all you gals (and maybe some guys??) and I really want to take advantage of that.
~Sabrina 264/208/160-165

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