Here I go....AGAIN

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Registered: 02-08-2005
Here I go....AGAIN
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Wed, 02-09-2005 - 11:55am

Hello All! I decided to stop LURKING and just post! I am a 32yr old mother of 3 and I have been overweight for most of my entire life. I had a 4 yr period (25-29) that I had taken off 70lbs. (and had the time of my life) I remarried in 2002 to a wonderful man who loves "ME"! I have always been a emotional eater. I eat if I am happy, sad, mad, bored, alone, etc... I also binge (NEVER PURGE) and closet eat. Until recently my husband just did not understand how (by judging what he would see me eat) I had gained so much weight. I finally just fessed up, I told him how I binge and never purge and that I am like an alcoholic with food. He was so great that it makes me cry and he vowed to help me do anything. I am so ashamed of my body and the havoc I have put it through. I have gotten to the point I don't even want to leave the house. I always seem to have the best intentions starting my day off, just to sabotage it later. I am always going to eat well and exercise, but I always end up with a box of cookies. (OR MORE) I don't understand how I could want to loose weight so badly, but have no "willpower" to do ANYTHING. I have restarted Atkins AGAIN and I am on day 3. I am doing well so far, but the weekend is near. I always seem to get into trouble at home. I have 105lbs to loose and I am @ 255lbs right now. Does anyone else struggle with motivation, binging and/or closet eating?

Kimberly

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Registered: 08-31-2004
Wed, 02-09-2005 - 1:03pm
Hi Kimberly!
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Registered: 06-17-2003
Wed, 02-09-2005 - 2:39pm
Hi kimberly, I am glad you decided to join us. I do the closet eating as well especially when I am upset. One of the best things I found to help is to clean out my pantry. That way when I go on a binge all I have are carrots to eat. I have also found that As I start to lose weight that my motivation increases. Once I made it past the first week I found it was much easier to eat healthy. It kinda became a habit. Please keep posting. I hope you find lots of support and the motivation you need. Good luck. sharla
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Registered: 02-09-2005
Wed, 02-09-2005 - 2:47pm
You sound so much like me. I do the closet eathing thing too, and now that I'm working from home, it's not so much in the closet anymore. I barely eat at all around my husband because I can't stand how much I eat, but when he's not here, all salty snacks are in danger of disappearing from the house. I also find it difficult to eat better since I have to keep snacks/food around for my husband and daughter. One thing I have learned is to buy snacks that they like but I don't (like peanut butter cups). No matter how much I want junk food, I won't even touch those.
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Registered: 08-18-2004
Wed, 02-09-2005 - 3:16pm

I am 36 years old and a mother of 3. I have been married almost 18 years. Last I checked I weighed the same as you...
I understand ! You sound a lot like me.

I eat when I am happy ... Sad... Mad...ect..
I am also at the point where I hate to leave the house.
I am on day 3 of my new lifestyle... I am cutting back..
WAY back..WATER WATER AND MORE WATER...
No sugar...
I also live by the scales.. For me it can be a good and bad thing. In the past its great when I am loosing but when I stop losing I get mad and eat. So this time I am NOT going to weight myself. I am going to hold off as long as I can.

I will also be RESTARTING my gym membership on Friday....which is hard for me because like I said I hate to leave the house! But I called them today and will pay for 6 months in advance so maybe I will stick with it.

I am looking forward to the weekend.. I plan to get moving again.. Baby steps maybe. But at least its a step..

Think Postive...
Tracey

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Registered: 02-08-2005
Thu, 02-10-2005 - 12:25am

WOW! Thank You all so much for being very honest with me. I NEEDED to know that its just not me! In the middle of a binge sometimes I just think that I am completely NUTS! Its hard to admit how weak I am with food! (should be obvious by looking though...lol) I just want to defeat this FOR GOOD! I agree with the baby steps...its hard enough! You guys are great, I look forward to reading your posts!

Kimberly