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Emotional Triggers
| Wed, 03-23-2005 - 8:18pm |
Well, it has been a week of self-awareness for me. I have had a lot of emotional ups and downs and found that I was pacing back and forth in the kitchen. I had one late night binge but, since I only have healthy food in the house, it wasn't too damaging. I knew it would be a full week of reconnecting with people I haven't seen in a long time. One was a teen dad who is having a very difficult life and while wanting to change his direction is still making poor choices. He tried to manipulate me into having him stay with us and "help" him out. Unfortunately, he was looking to "play" me and I have to let him go his own way (at least for now). I got a really, really bad haircut (first one in 3 years). Tomorrow I will be seeing an old friend and playing golf for the first time in over a year(the last time she saw me I was 75lbs lighter!). On Friday I am having coffee with my former boss about whom I have abivalent feelings. I like people but I hold a lot of anxiety inside about seeing people. Everyone thinks I'm an extrovert but I am really an introvert and seeing even old friends is an emotional effort for me. I certainly have some balancing to work on in my life along with understanding how my feeling impact my eating habits. Thanks for listening. LK

I'm sorry you are having such a bad week. I hope the teen dad you mentioned gets turned around and on the right track.
You mentioned how much of a effort it is to meet with people, even tho some of them were O.K. When you said that, it made me realize that I am the same exact way. It could be someone I considered to be a "best-friend" or a relative even...and I wish I could be anyone else but me in that meeting. I never hardly look forward to the meetings much past the initial "it's a date"! Then dread it with all my might.
I don't know why I am like this. Maybe it is because I am an introvert also. I know I am but you would think someone would be a little more comfortable around relatives even.
Stacy