hello, back again again

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Registered: 06-13-2004
hello, back again again
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Sun, 05-15-2005 - 7:54pm

I haven't visited for the longest time, but I came by to read some updates and just wanted to say hello again. I used to post here ages ago and was slowly doing really well. I went on a sugar bender since last Christmas and really have been on a roller coaster since then and gained back much of the weight I had lost. I recently signed up for WW as a last dich effort and haven't lost a thing in like 5 weeks, and am a bit too humiliated to go back! Everytime I start to plan to eat healthy I panic and eat bad things again because I am afraid I won't have any for months and months, and I just never get started.
Well, maybe I will start journalling here again, I liked doing it before!

;) kristrin

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Registered: 12-10-2004
Sun, 05-15-2005 - 11:16pm
Hi Kristin, I'm Kristi. So glad to meet you! I know what you mean about fear of going on a plan, etc. I don't diet anymore. I will never again in my life measure, weigh, count, or anything else, with food. I can't do that, I've never been successful at keeping weight off that way so that's it for me. I will however, continue to do what I'm doing. I'm just making better choices. I deny myself nothing and so without the pressure, I'm able to enjoy whatever it is without being anxious about it and eating a whole ton of something later. I found when I quit hiding and eating and quit being afraid to eat regularly in front of people, the panic was gone and I didn't eat as much. Works for me and makes me feel like a normal person. It's freedom from my own mind and I love it. I am slowly, extremely slowly, losing weight. Shoot, just from quitting eating in the car I lost 15 pounds right away. Now it's a trickle and that's fine by me. I don't focus on numbers - what I weigh is what I weigh. I'm just trying to get healthy. The reason I'm at this website is because I want to fellowship with others who are as overweight as I am. Short story long, I just wanted you to know that I've been through what you're going through too many times to count. At some point I told myself that to continue setting myself up for failure was doing more to hurt me than my weight was. Each person is different in what they do for themselves. I'm just telling you what I've done to be able to live happy. Kristi :o) <><
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Registered: 04-19-2005
Sun, 05-15-2005 - 11:56pm

Hey Kristrin. I know EXACTLY how you feel! I have been on my eating plan (low cal/low fat/calorie counting/portion control/1200-1600 cals a day) for the past 4 weeks and the scale hasn't moved! However, my clothes do fit better and I, as well as my husband and son, notice changes in my body (i.e., calves look smaller as well as my back, stomach, ankles, etc.) And, just today I walked for over an hour at a good pace and didn't get out of breath like I usually do! So, even though the scale hasn't moved, my healthy eating and exercise IS working.

I suggest you do as I did, give up on the scale. At least for a while, and just continue to eat healthy and exercise. You will see results! Whether it be in lost inches, better fitting clothes, walking with ease, etc. It IS doing you good. Even if the scale doesn't seem to say so. Start measuring yourself instead. This is something I myself must start doing as well. Good Luck!!!!!!!!!

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Registered: 06-13-2004
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 2:10am

hi kristi:

thank you... and you are right. I have been feeling anxious, and all panicy about what to do, trying to focus but rebelling and just going in circles. I was doing very well when I was journalling here before... sometimes even breathing slow just to get through a craving, and feeling good about exercising and feeding myself wholesome healthy things. thanks for reminding me to calm down and be good to myself. I get very scared about thinking that I shouldn't count or follow some program that will lead me to success. You are brave for finding your own way.

kristrin

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Registered: 06-13-2004
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 2:14am

hi,

thanks. Its true, the body can just adapt so quickly when it is being treated well. Right now it is not very happy with me! I am achy and feeling tired and cruddy. Its nice to be reminded of what is best to do. thanks,
kristrin

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Registered: 05-17-2004
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 1:44pm

Kristrin!

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Registered: 08-31-2004
Mon, 05-16-2005 - 3:04pm
Hi Kristrin!
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Registered: 06-13-2004
Tue, 05-17-2005 - 1:40am

Hello kerstin and shawna!!!

it is nice to be back. I have spent the day thinking, what a relief. I always forget that there are people who have been through this. I will post post post until I am on my own two feet and heading in the right direction again..,

;) !!! kristrin