Slinking back in.... having a rough week

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Slinking back in.... having a rough week
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Wed, 06-08-2005 - 5:22pm

Hey ladies. I need to vent aka complain and whine. LOL I'm so....depressed I guess is the word. Disappointed too. I haven't been exercising and while I haven't been eating perfect (I tend to reach for the sugar too much), I'm still eating fairly good. It's become a habit to eat fruits and veggies now, more low-fat, healthier stuff. But...I still go over 1700 calories a day. Back up around 2000. Part of that is just the sugar I put in my coffee. Anyone ever tried that Splenda sweetener? I tend to drink a lot of coffee, and what can I say, I like it sweet. So I put splenda in it instead, thinking I could cut 300 calories a day (3 Tbsp sugar for each 3-cup mug). But oh lord, it turns my stomach upside down. Makes me bloat up with hugely painful gas and then constipates me. So I stopped and switched back to sugar.

Anyway, I've gained back 5 pounds. Why do I keep doing this to myself?? I can blame it on everything under the sun, but the truth is, the problem is me. Just when I start to look thin again (I was down 233), I get stressed and then start to eat again. It's been a pattern I keep repeating for the last two or three months now. I'm to the point where I just want to give up. I can't lose this weight by starving myself. It just doesn't work for me. But it seems like unless I do exactly that and go down to about 1500 calories, I'll never get there.

I know, I know, stop complaining and do something about it. I did today. Did really good, exercized, started out eating right. But I made these brownies. Granted they're fat free, but not sugar free. They still have a lot of calories (god they taste good....you don't miss the fat at all). I've had three of them so far today. With dinner, I'm already over my calorie limit for the day.

Anyway....I don't really have a question. LOL I would ask where you guys all find your motivation, but I know that's something I have to dig up for myself. Hope everyone's doing better than me! lol

~Joanne

 

 

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Wed, 06-08-2005 - 5:45pm
Hi Joanne:

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Wed, 06-08-2005 - 6:45pm

Hi Joanne!!! I'm glad to see you back, I was wondering where you were. I know it's so hard to stick with it, but it's well worth it in the end. And don't be too discouraged about those 5 lbs. For pretty much the whole month of May, I went completely off track and gained 5 lbs back also. I got back on program 2 weeks ago, though, and I am doing better than ever. I have accepted that I am going to slip, but I am going to try to keep it under control and get back on track ASAP, if ever that happens again. I have actually lost 10 lbs since I got back on track, which is the 5 I had gained and 5 more, so that's a really big motivator for me. I was thinking the other day, and I know it sounds like a self defeating idea, but I thought, ok, if I can only do this whole losing weight thing for 4 weeks at a time, and then go 4 weeks off, if I can keep the weight loss to a min of 15 lbs and the weight gain to a max of 5 lbs, then I will have still lost 10 net lbs in 2 months. Now, this isn't something I plan to do, but it's very reassuring to me because in the past when I would go off plan and gain a few lbs, I would just give it up completely and gain back ALL of my weight lost in a very short period of time. I have finally realized that gaining a few pounds isn't the big deal--the big deal is when I just let them keep piling up.

It's so great that healthier eating has become ingrained in you. I feel the same way. When I went off track in May, yes, I ate a lot of bad stuff, but I also craved salads and chicken.

I know that you can do this!!

Staci


 


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Thu, 06-09-2005 - 10:05am

Thanks, Kerstin. I do know that, that it took a while to get me here and it it'll take a while to get me out. Today's a new day. Will start over and try again.

Thanks. :)

~Joanne

 

 

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Thu, 06-09-2005 - 10:15am

You know, half my problem is that I'm such a perfectionist. I hate that I slip. I've gotten back on that dang horse so much lately and not seen any results that it's frustrating. Cause I'm trying to go at it like a lifestyle change. I can't feel like I'm depriving myself or I'll fail. I know I will.

Anyway....thanks, Staci. Getting back on that stupid horse today. ;)

 

 

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Thu, 06-09-2005 - 10:19am

Gurrrlfriend!

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Thu, 06-09-2005 - 10:31am
LOL Thanks, Shawna. And yeah, I know everybody's been there at some point, and I know what to do, so I really wasn't even looking for an answer. I usually keep that stuff bottled up, which is half my problem, so I figured, hey, what if I try actually confess my sins. lol