New girl needing motivation

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Registered: 06-24-2004
New girl needing motivation
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Mon, 06-13-2005 - 11:18pm

Ok well I'm at my limits now. I don't want to be like this anymore. It's hurting me and my relationship with my husband. I have the motivation but I've tried everything and nothing has worked. I mean literally... you can name stuff and most likely I've tried it. I'm extremely embarassed about my weight that I don't want to tell it now. I won't even let my husband know what size I wear. I'm at the edge of a breakdown and I don't know what to do. I'm out of options and out of money. Anything at all would be helpful.

-Heather

ps: and yes I've talked to my doctor. I have a inactive thyroid problem that I'm already taking medicine for and have been for some years now.

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Tue, 06-14-2005 - 9:42am
Hello Heather!
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Tue, 06-14-2005 - 10:40am

Hi Heather!

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Registered: 06-24-2004
Tue, 06-14-2005 - 10:58pm
Well right now I'm kinda on a break from dieting because I have to go with the cheaper and not as healthy items from the store. I'm kind of low on money right now. But I try not to eat that much and I get exercise from going to school and doing my homework which is to go out and take pictures. I usually spend about an hour or more hiking through some area taking pictures. That usually happens at least twice a week. I've been sick this week so the last time was last friday. Anyways I may have come off wrong when I said that my weight affects my husband too. What I meant is that I don't feel sexy at all and so I'm never in the mood... and he suffers in that way. He's very supportive of me and loves me very much, so that helps me to focus on this being about me and not about me making him happy. I want to make him happy but thats not why I'm trying to lose weight. I'm trying to lose weight for my health and my future. My doctor says that I am a prime candidate for that bariatric surgery...but he hasn't helped me find a way to have it. And after trying just about everything, I'm willing to take that step to change my life. But anyways I'm blabbing on... well I guess thats ok in here. If you didn't want to hear it you whould have stopped reading it by now.
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Wed, 06-15-2005 - 10:22am

I have to disagree with you.

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Wed, 06-15-2005 - 10:40am

It sounds as if you may just need an extra boost of support.

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Registered: 12-10-2004
Sun, 06-19-2005 - 12:23pm
I really feel for you, and all the gals on here who are in the panic mode or the disgust mode, etc. I've been there, done that and will be there again, all of us have here, I think. I agree with the gal who talked about cheap/healthy food. It takes more preparation but it is worth it. And it's something the whole family can participate in. I love that you hike and it must make your body feel wonderful! (After exercise and I shower, that's when I feel the most "in the mood"!) Try that one on your husband. My husband is very supportive of me also, and he says he doesn't see the weight. I love that because he's seeing the girl he loves, not the large girl that I see. And I know he appreciates some of my outside because he'll tell me when he thinks I look nice. I did tell my husband my weight. After I was at the doctor's and I had hit my highest weight, I came home and told him. I had to get it out in the light. I simply could not hide that number any longer. It didn't matter to him! The number was just a number. He only wanted me to be happy. Years ago I was in the ER with a gallbladder atack and I was doubled over the desk in pain. The nurse asked me my weight and I told her I wouldn't tell her with my husband there! THAT was the only time Carl's been disgusted with me! Ha, ha, ha. You're in good company here. Glad you're with us. Kristi :o) <><
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Registered: 07-19-2004
Sun, 06-19-2005 - 6:41pm
When I read your post I thought when did I write this???!!!! Denial was/is my middle name. If I did not own it I could do nothing about it. I did not DID NOT want to know what I really did weigh. I found out at Curves I just stood there. Gosh, I was in a fantasy world. Two choices maintain..........or try to lose. I personally got my professional life in the way since I did/do not have a personal life. Well tommorrow I am back at Curves. They are the most wonderful women in the world. I never felt like the odd girl out I was just one of the girls. Unconditional support is what you need............no more bad mouthing yourself. Start being your cheerleader!!! I did not understand that until I put on my fat panties and GIRL I had to let them go they were off the body and the fear of losing them was enough for me to face it I HAD LOST weight(smile). You have got to have laughter in this weight loss game. She who could not lose one pound without gaining five. I am back with a vengance. If I can do this.......... so can you. One day......... one pound..........one smile.