I am so frusterated!!!

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Registered: 03-11-2005
I am so frusterated!!!
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Fri, 07-01-2005 - 8:37pm

When I would step on the scale I always think that can't be right. I never thought I looked or felt like I weighed that much. Then today I saw myself in a store window, and I thought who is that. Then I realized it was me and I wanted to cry. I was never the type of person I thought would be fat, and now I am and I hate it. I need to lose weight so that I a can start liking who I am. I rarely see people I knew before I got fat and now when I do I want to run and hide I don't want them to go home and say Oh MY Gosh she got sooooooo fat. Ok I am done complaining.

Motogirl

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Fri, 07-01-2005 - 8:59pm

I know how you feel.....I know the person in the pictures I get developed can't possibly be me!!!! I'm not that fat, I don't look that way....but I do. And that upsets me even more. The main thing to remember is that you are here, you are trying and you will do it!!!

A few monhs ago, we all recommitted to not making excuses anymore, and its helped so much....you CAN do this! And we're here to help!

Hang in there!

Dawn

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Fri, 07-01-2005 - 9:01pm
I think we all have those "whose that" monents...and I know we are our own worst enemys. I don't know you but I bet you have lots of wonderful qualities that were shinning through in that window also...Tell me about those
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Sat, 07-02-2005 - 12:48pm

I know what you mean!

I look like that picture of that poor creature who has a small head on top of a very large body! I am just sick of it...

I know what I need to do, so I am going to go kick my self in the keester and get going once more...I am so stupied! I should never let my self go in the first place! I wish I would have had one great friend who would have said...."Whoooo gal you were done with that meal yesterday! Time to get on the stick and lose some weight!"

Sussie Q

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Sat, 07-02-2005 - 4:17pm
I know what you mean by seeing people you knew before you were overweight. At my 10 year highschool reunion the guy I went to the Senior Prom with looked me up and down and I said, "Ya, I've put on some weight," and he just had open disgust all over his face, even had his lips curled. Can you believe that? And I was there in the most beautiful dress and I was quite a bit thinner than I am now. He was kind of a dork in highschool but her sure graduated to jerk in that 10 years. It has now been 24 years out of highschool. I didn't go to my 20 year reunion, not because I didn't think I'd have fun, but I simply couldn't take the looks and comments. There's something about reunions that bring adults right back to their highschool behaviors. When I see people now I feel like I need to explain what happened. Isn't that dumb? Kristi :o) <><
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Sat, 07-02-2005 - 7:15pm
You sound just like me!
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Sun, 07-03-2005 - 11:26am
The worst is that one of my really good friends from highschool lives in my new neighborhood(ater highschool I didn't see her much because I moved) any way she had a baby the same tome I had my youngest. She is like a size 2 with this long gorgeous hair. I see her and think I used to be right there with her skinny with gorgeous hair, and now I am fat with short hair. when I see her those are the moments I feel really uncomfortable looking like I do.
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Sun, 07-03-2005 - 1:53pm
Oh ya, that would be hard. I try to remind myself that everybody has a different body type. We don't have to look like Barbies to look o.k. It's just when we're with a Barbie we are reminded how much we don't look like her! Ha, ha, ha. My boss is a Barbie only with dark hair, and 48 years old. She's very pretty and a head turner. We've worked 11 years together and are very good friends. When we're at a work function or anything else, I feel like the Amazing Blob Woman, Able To Eat Everything In Site - Keep Your Fingers Away From Her Mouth Or She Will Eat You Too!!!!!!!!! Ha, ha, ha. Seriously, I feel I look like a square box next to her. I don't fret about it as much as I used to, but I am still concious of it. Kristi :o) <><
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Mon, 07-04-2005 - 11:14pm
I'm right there with ya!! I don't feel or think that I am as fat as I really am. I saw my reflection today in a store cooler door and I didn't recognize myself. Then, when I looked again, I noticed that my stomach sticks out in front farther than my rear does in back--which makes me look even huger. I think that I haven't really been able to stick with an eating plan because I don't feel as fat as I am. I cant believe that my friends are all 100-150 pounds lighter than I am.
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Tue, 07-05-2005 - 3:11am

Hey everybody!

This is my first time posting and like most of you I have a lot of weight that I need to lose.
I come in about once a week and read, guess I'm a lurker!!! lol!
I'm reading about your feelings and I wanted to say a few things (hopefully encouraging), not just to you but also as a reminder to myself. I can relate to being embarrassed but I think it's important for us to remind ourselves that being overweight isn't the single worst thing that can happen. When I start beating myself up I stop and remind myself how lucky I am that I don't have some of the 'handicaps' that some people have been dealt in their lifetime. I'm 30 and I have two high school friends that have died from cancer, neither were overweight... another friend was killed in a car wreck a few years ago... one of my best friend's got hooked on drugs (you name it - the heavy stuff) immediately after school and although she has been clean for 6 years she now has a felony record and has lost custody of her children... how many ppl do you know that have had addictions to drugs and alcohol and so many other things??? It really could be worse and without an option to overcome. I try to remind myself that where I go from here with my 'burden' is up to me but at least I have a choice. I can sit on the couch and suck down bon-bons :o) or I can do something about it. At least we have a choice, ya know? Obesity is far from the worst card that you can be dealt. When I think of the rude ppl of the world who wear their disguist of our situation so easily, it makes you wonder what they are hiding. What if we all had to wear a sign displaying our biggest setbacks? I bet we'd all be pretty surprised at how human we all are after all... It would be nice to see their issues as easily as they can see ours.
I get depressed sometimes b/c it is such a struggle but I always tell myself that it didn't come on overnight and it's not gonna disappear overnight! It may always be a struggle for some, I know it has been for me, but it isn't as bad as it could be.
I used to work for a company where the insurance paid for Gastric Bypass and sure I thought about it! But there were so many people who had the surgery and either had major complications (2 almost died) or had gained most of (some gained all) the weight back b/c they still didn't change their eating habits. Certainly there were a few that had the surgery and it worked wonders for them, but statistically looking at about 20 ppl who had the surgery and their overall outcomes... I wasn't convinced and decided that I just needed to do this on my own. NOT THAT I'M BASHING ANYONE WHO DOES IT OR HAS HAD IT DONE... I'm just a chicken!!!
The sad thing for me is that I have lost ALL of the weight before and then gained it ALL back and a few! *kicks myself in the tail* On the bright side, because of that I do feel that I can do it again.

We can do it!!!
Hang in there everybody!!!

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Wed, 07-06-2005 - 2:44am
What you and moto-girl said rang true for me too. I look at pictures or video or at full length mirrors and think to myself that there's got to be something wrong, but of course it's not it's a reality check. Since I'm just starting my weight loss journey, I'm going to include pictures, that way I can see my efforts pay off with more than just a number on the scale. Together we can do this and when we reach goal we'll all be posing for pictures :)