I am so frusterated!!!
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I am so frusterated!!!
| Fri, 07-01-2005 - 8:37pm |
When I would step on the scale I always think that can't be right. I never thought I looked or felt like I weighed that much. Then today I saw myself in a store window, and I thought who is that. Then I realized it was me and I wanted to cry. I was never the type of person I thought would be fat, and now I am and I hate it. I need to lose weight so that I a can start liking who I am. I rarely see people I knew before I got fat and now when I do I want to run and hide I don't want them to go home and say Oh MY Gosh she got sooooooo fat. Ok I am done complaining.
Motogirl

I know how you feel.....I know the person in the pictures I get developed can't possibly be me!!!! I'm not that fat, I don't look that way....but I do. And that upsets me even more. The main thing to remember is that you are here, you are trying and you will do it!!!
A few monhs ago, we all recommitted to not making excuses anymore, and its helped so much....you CAN do this! And we're here to help!
Hang in there!
Dawn
I know what you mean!
I look like that picture of that poor creature who has a small head on top of a very large body! I am just sick of it...
I know what I need to do, so I am going to go kick my self in the keester and get going once more...I am so stupied! I should never let my self go in the first place! I wish I would have had one great friend who would have said...."Whoooo gal you were done with that meal yesterday! Time to get on the stick and lose some weight!"
Sussie Q
Hey everybody!
This is my first time posting and like most of you I have a lot of weight that I need to lose.
I come in about once a week and read, guess I'm a lurker!!! lol!
I'm reading about your feelings and I wanted to say a few things (hopefully encouraging), not just to you but also as a reminder to myself. I can relate to being embarrassed but I think it's important for us to remind ourselves that being overweight isn't the single worst thing that can happen. When I start beating myself up I stop and remind myself how lucky I am that I don't have some of the 'handicaps' that some people have been dealt in their lifetime. I'm 30 and I have two high school friends that have died from cancer, neither were overweight... another friend was killed in a car wreck a few years ago... one of my best friend's got hooked on drugs (you name it - the heavy stuff) immediately after school and although she has been clean for 6 years she now has a felony record and has lost custody of her children... how many ppl do you know that have had addictions to drugs and alcohol and so many other things??? It really could be worse and without an option to overcome. I try to remind myself that where I go from here with my 'burden' is up to me but at least I have a choice. I can sit on the couch and suck down bon-bons :o) or I can do something about it. At least we have a choice, ya know? Obesity is far from the worst card that you can be dealt. When I think of the rude ppl of the world who wear their disguist of our situation so easily, it makes you wonder what they are hiding. What if we all had to wear a sign displaying our biggest setbacks? I bet we'd all be pretty surprised at how human we all are after all... It would be nice to see their issues as easily as they can see ours.
I get depressed sometimes b/c it is such a struggle but I always tell myself that it didn't come on overnight and it's not gonna disappear overnight! It may always be a struggle for some, I know it has been for me, but it isn't as bad as it could be.
I used to work for a company where the insurance paid for Gastric Bypass and sure I thought about it! But there were so many people who had the surgery and either had major complications (2 almost died) or had gained most of (some gained all) the weight back b/c they still didn't change their eating habits. Certainly there were a few that had the surgery and it worked wonders for them, but statistically looking at about 20 ppl who had the surgery and their overall outcomes... I wasn't convinced and decided that I just needed to do this on my own. NOT THAT I'M BASHING ANYONE WHO DOES IT OR HAS HAD IT DONE... I'm just a chicken!!!
The sad thing for me is that I have lost ALL of the weight before and then gained it ALL back and a few! *kicks myself in the tail* On the bright side, because of that I do feel that I can do it again.
We can do it!!!
Hang in there everybody!!!