Slinking back in....

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Registered: 11-17-2004
Slinking back in....
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 10:37pm

I haven't been around the board much lately, even to lurk...but it is way past time to refocus and get my growing butt back in gear!

Confession time... I was down to 235 LAST August. From then through the holidays I put back on 11 lbs. Somehow managed to maintain that for almost a year. It sucked cuz I wasn't losing, though admittedly not trying as hard as I could, but at least I was staying mostly the same. Until about a month ago... DH was laid off from his job and with him being around the house and being depressed there is a lot more junk around the house. I know it is all my fault for eating it and also not exercising as much as I should, I just haven't done much to fight the temptation. But, the other day I weighed in at 255. It was right before that TOM so I'm hoping some of it was water retention, but it doesn't matter what it is made of, a 20 lb gain is totally unacceptable to me. I feel sick knowing I've let this happen to myself. I told myself I would NEVER weigh more than 250 lbs again, and yet here I am...

So, I'm back. Even if I don't have much time to post I'm at least going to read the board daily to constantly remind myself that I HAVE to get back into better eating habits, right now!

Amanda
285/255/235 (for now)

Amanda

mom to Ethan (7), Ryen (6), and Katelyn (2)

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Registered: 01-05-2000
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 6:51am
It is so hard to get on the scale and see that you have gained weight. I am there with you! I have gained back 30 of the 55 that I lost in 2003. But never give up, there is always hope. Good to see you back. Stephanie 280/250/223 for now
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Registered: 05-25-2005
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 11:03am
Welcome back Amanda!

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Registered: 08-31-2004
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 12:29pm
Hey Amanda! Im glad to see you but I wish it was under better circumstances!
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Registered: 02-22-2005
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 2:08pm
Glad you're here! Be proud that you are ready to do something to make yourself healthier! LK
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Registered: 08-26-2005
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 4:23pm
Hello, I have done the same thing as you. About 3 years ago i was a MISERABLE 302 pounds 5' 11'', i saw a picture of myself in our church directory and i didnt even recognize myself. I thought, who is that fat chic with my family, ha ha. So i made up my mind to lose it and in a year i had lost 100 pounds. My lowest recorded weight was 193, which is still a lot but with me being so tall, i felt like i looked great. Well i dont know what happened but slowly and steadily i gained, and gained, and gained. Now back up to a whopping 288 (i have lost 6 pounds this past week)...well i am starting all over again. Very frustrating. Was it worth all the good food to feel this bad? I dont think so. So now my goal is just to get healthy, and by getting healthy, losing weight will follow. I am LOVING pilates (winsor series), i find that i sit up straighter and pull my stomach in without even knowing it. Where as, i used to be a sloucher. I lost weight the first time by going to weight watchers, wonderful program but this time around i am just counting calories. Right now my daily goal is under 1600 per day and i seem to be doing well with that. I am also keeping a lifestyle journal...keeping track of what i eat, why i eat, and when i eat...also keeping track of exercise, emotions etc. Its working so far...hopefully i can stay motivated.