Too Young to Die Yet Too Old To Keep...
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Too Young to Die Yet Too Old To Keep...
| Mon, 10-17-2005 - 1:32pm |
...trying! (darn discussion title limits characters!)
Okay, I have reached a goofy point in my life where I have turned 40 this year and currently, I need to lose 150 pounds - I weigh about 290 - the most I've ever weighed.
I was a 'normal' sized kid, but when I went away to college, that's when I started gaining weight, and it's just kept building over the years, even though I have lost then gained then lost again.
The last time I went to the Dr's and he tested my blood sugar, I was not diabetic, but I wasn't in the 'normal' range, either.

Dear Julie
I read your message and alot of things you wrote about i could relate to. In my case I was 43 and weighed 280 the most i have ever weighed in my life so i know how are you are feeling. I felt helpless about my situation which lead me not to care for my life - i kept eating, not wanting to go any where. Very embarrassed about what i had become. My husband has been great and encouraged me to do something about loosing weight. He was over weight himself and started to loose weight by regularly excersing. I saw how good he was looking and feeling. I thought why cann't i do this do?
I had a wake up call when i saw a picture of my self- it was such a shock how huge i had became. Anyway i just started to watch what i ate - no formal diet plan, just healthier choices. I started to excerise a little and was amazed how good i was feeling and of course my clothes getting looser. It has taken me 1.5 years to lose 53 lbs - i hit sooooo many plateaus but i have just kept at it. I now doing free weights / cardio x3 a week - which i just love. Have gone down 4 sizes! I guess what i trying to say its a SLOW progress...... but iam determined to hang in therefor the long run. I refuse to let my weight be a hinderance to a happy life.
I feel for you so much. This isn't about if you have kids or not, losing you is still a loss to friends, hubbys and relatives. A loss is a loss and you don't sound like someone worth losing. Its sounds like you're suffering from some type of depression and you really should talk with a doc. I know how ya feel cuz I feel the same way sometimes, like its not worth the fight cuz we are all goin to wind up in the sme place someday, ha! Talk to a doc about the way you FEEL, not your weight. Committing slow suicide is still suicide and I bet your hub wold like you around for as long as possible. Getting out of the depression will help your outlook.
Keep us posted! I'll be here for ya!
sickofit
Hi Julie,
i feel alot like you do but since i have made up my mind i want to see my grandbabies grow and be able t do things with them i continue on this trek.. i have my days where it seems why am i doing this.. then i remember hey now i can walk all over and things dont hurt as much.. i have days where i go try on clothes and still cant find me a pair of jeans at walmarts or kmarts.. i feel like throwing in the towel.. i am 46 and its not an easy
Sincerely,
Katherine
Wow - all of your answers have had me do some serious soul-searching over the last week, and I thank you for your help and advice.
Katherine - I really liked how you put it in perspective of how easy it would be to say 'damn it all', but you're right - when things don't fit, when you're afraid of sitting on a chair because you might break it, even when I wonder if people are looking at me and thinking certain things because I'm big - yes - these are all not good things.
There's a part of me that isn't happy with my weight and how it's limited my life. I do want to change, and to be able to walk into the kitchen and think the 'right' way.
Thank you all for your advice - I'm trying now to get my head around going forward the best way I can.
Julie
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