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Eating disorder fears
| Thu, 11-17-2005 - 1:27pm |
Okay, I have always assumed that my overeating was an eating disorder, just not the skinny Karen Carpenter type.
| Thu, 11-17-2005 - 1:27pm |
Okay, I have always assumed that my overeating was an eating disorder, just not the skinny Karen Carpenter type.
I worry about it because I did have major problems with eating as a girl. I am a recovering bulimic. It's more than puking; It's about binging and purging in general:
1) I would eat everything for a week straight, then starve myself for five days thereafter and eat nothing. I'd drink water by the gallon, too. I'd eat when I began to feel sick, or loopy.
2) I would work out until I had blood blisters on my feet from all the running and walking I was doing.
3) I would eat everything I want, drink water until just hiccupping would bring it back up. Then, I would vomit.
4) I would go through a box of laxatives a day, and resorted to stealing them so as to save money and face.
I might still revert. You never know. I have been tempted to starve for days on end, and work out until I'm blistered. I don't know if I'd do laxatives again, but it has occurred to me that I could eat Thanksgiving dinner if I vomit about 8 times that day. I could eat all day and throw it up. I know how.
It's very easy to follow a disorder, I think. I'm trying really hard not to. I am. When this is all done, who knows what I'll do to myself. All I can do now is just worry about my weight and my eating habits, and worry about that bridge when I cross it.
I wish I could have given you decent advice! I guess we'll see when we get to our ideal weight.
at this point, I'm more worried about not being able to lose the weight at all. I'm afraid of hereditary things like high cholesterol, high blood pressure, heart problems and diabetes. I'll cross the 'im too skinny' bridge when i come to it.
really, if youre worried about not knowing when to stop, take a cue from friends and family. when they start saying "i think you look great!" or "i think youve lost all the weight you need to" or similar things, you'll know youre done. Set a weight goal, and stick to it (for instance, I plan to stop weight-loss at 130, if I ever reach it). another thing you may want to consider is talking to your doctor about your fears. they might be able to reccomend something for you.