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| Fri, 12-16-2005 - 1:31am |
Gosh. Just when I think I know it all, my mom visits.
I showed her, my grandmother and my husband a picture of me when I was at 115 pounds, at a point I used to think I was at a good weight. The last few times I've looked at it, I see decidedly too much in the thigh area. I showed it to them for their opinion. Their first response was "Gosh, you were so skinny then! I didn't remember you being so skinny!"
That was, of course, both flattering and depressing. If I looked skinny in a picture, take ten pounds off for reality there. But then, it showed that they only remember me as fat, which is a bummer.
Then, the more my mom looked at it the more she agreed that I was still a bit too plump in the picture. Everyone but my diet-hating husband agreed that I should be right at 100 pounds to look good, from about 95-105 tops.
That kind of crushes my former plans to goal at 103 and rest easy even if I gained back to 110. Because at 115 I was a plump little thing. So, this spill was to document and offer explanation why my goal weight is now being moved from 103 to 95.
By the way, hi to all you new folks. When I have more time I'll get to know you.
April a.k.a. Zeverai
(233/227/95)

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95???
Lady Jewel
April..I echo what the other two have said..95 pounds is just too small for most people. Besides, once you start building muscle, you will weigh more than you look because muscle is heavier than fat. Do what works for you, no one else!
Kate
261/252/145
Hey. Thanks for your concern, you two who posted. I'm 5'2", but under all this flub I'm real petite and fineboned. I can't tolerate much excess weight due to that and due to being short. Plus, most of my height is legs; I hardly have any torso height at all. I'd scan in the pic of when I was 115 so you guys could see I was still chubby then, but it's one of those tiny little pictures from Six Flags that they put under a tunneled magnifying glass for viewing. Couldn't scan it or anything; it's a real squint just to see it at all.
Anyway. Like I told my folks, there's a long way between where I'm at and 95 pounds, and if I get to 110 and look okay I can always stop. But it's been our speculation that I'd be about right at 95, and the charts I've seen online put an ideal for my height at around 100-120.
It's not for my mom, she dislikes me and would prefer I stay fat really. I'm just tired of feeling so self conscious and I know that I'm unhealthy. I own my own business, and I always wonder how much better I might do if people found me attractive instead of seeing some fat girl walking in. It's awkward, too, since my product is an all natural, health conscious alternative type thing and here I am over 200 pounds telling people how concerned I am about my health. I've never been one to overeat, but they don't know that. I guess when people see me they envision me with a bag of potato chips and a coke. Oh well. I look forward to the day I can be more confident and more openly received.
I'm so glad you replied back.
Lady Jewel
Sorry if you felt I was being critical, I just like to barge in. :) I know how you feel about your job..being a nurse, it's kind of tough to talk to people about being healthy when they can look at me and think, "yeah, right. She's one to talk!"
Kate
261/252/145
It has to come from within you. YOU should want to lose the weight. If you're not ready, or still thinking: "I should lose weight" rather than "I want to lose weight", then nothing can be said will motivate you. You need to find YOUR motivation.. the thing that makes you click.
Mary
247/214/165
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