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Roller Coaster
| Thu, 01-05-2006 - 10:27am |
Now that I am actually beginning to see results, I seem to be on an emotional rollercoaster with a lot of conflicting feelings. I'm happy with my progress, but then I get so irritated with myself for not starting this before when I weighed less. I look at pants that are getting baggier and I'm thrilled, but then I remind myself that the rest of the world still sees me as a blob. I know I've spent years feeling horrible about myself and that will take time to overcome, but how do you stop that negativity from creeping in all the time? Am I the only crazy one out there that this is happening to?

Hugs to you.
Don't beat yourself up for the past; it's done, it's over; you can't change what has already been.
Would it make you feel better if I said that you are a blob? No. I think that is one of many ways we try to sabotage things for ourselves. Who gives a damn what others think of you now if you are seeing results. If you look in your closet and see that there are pants you can't get into because they are TOO BIG...relish that...live in that moment and then extend it. Because if you concern yourself with how others perceive you, you are in danger of derailing all of your efforts. And that is truly something to be sad about. Focus on your successes and that will lead you to more successes. Before you know it, you'll have to shop for a new wardrobe.
If there are days when you feel like crap and you're in utter misery over what others are thinking of you...air your frustrations here. And I will tell you what I think of you. Besides your own...my opinion is the only one that counts.
YOU KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK. (i wish my pants were too big for me. unfortunately i am too big for my pants...ha ha ha.)
til next time
randomgirl
Thanks for the words of encouragement. I'm really impressed with your accomplishments, by the way. I keep trying to picture myself as thin and what I will wear and do when I get there. As always, some days are better than others and today is a good one!
Laura
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As always, you've given me a good laugh. Thanks for the the support and endorphines (I hope that is the right word, now that I'm putting it out there for the world to see)!
Laura
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