Back from the dead.

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Registered: 11-26-2005
Back from the dead.
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Fri, 01-27-2006 - 3:14pm

I think I just totally ceased to exist for a month. Since Christmas I haven't done ANYTHING. Depression has gripped me hard. But I think I'm coming back to life now. At least I didn't gain any weight ;P I suspect a real problem was that I cleaned my room up in a rush for the Christmas company's benefit and my inspirational little fatbook got crammed down in a crevice and so I haven't had its wisdom to keep me on track. I got it back last night and added a few things in there that I found off a pro anorexia website. I went there since I've been hearing sooo much about them on the news, and was actually quite shocked to see that they use a lot of the methods I do. "Thinspiration" pictures and motivational quotes to live by, it was kinda disturbing really but I found a few things that will probably help me. It's not all "Thou shalt barf up all your food" on there, heh. I've been writing a lot of weird dark poetry and my new fav song is "Rip out the wings of a Butterfly" by H.I.M (His Infernal Majesty)..soo... I think its fair to say I'm going through a dark period. I don't mind it really, so long as I don't lay in bed all day crying. Think that's over for now. I'll check my weight on Tuesday so I can update my progress.

See ya round.

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Registered: 07-01-2003
Sun, 01-29-2006 - 5:30am

Hey, welcome back Zaverai (it's April right?).. I was wondering where you went.. I missed the quoted from your little fatbook..

Stick around.. I didn't do that well during the holidays and I'm trying to pick it up again... we have a lot of newbies too..

Welcome back
Mary
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