Confessions........

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Confessions........
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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 1:20pm

I wasn't going to post at all, but I know now that I just can't give up. SO here I am, yesterday was a horrible day for me all around not just food. I won't go into details but let's say it was the worst mother's day I have ever had, and a mother's nightmare. Now I am so discouraged, stressed, upset, and just plain feeling down. Like I wasn't feeling that way bad enough anyways. The whole day was a disaster.
My eating went okay til last night when Dh and I blew up at one another and then I blew it, I had sonic cheeseburger and chili cheese fries. I know bad enough right but I didn't stop there I made cookies and i ate half of them, that is right HALF. I had sent him to the store and to get the sonic and well on his way out the door, i said the words get either a chocolate cake or some cupcakes i don't care which. OMG. Fortunately after the sonic an cookies I didn't touch the cupcakes.
So anyways, so I had a really horrible day emotional wise and I blew it in the end diet wise. Now until I get my head straight my goal is to maintain and get back on track. I am having a hard time doing that right now so it may take a few days. Until then I don't really have any upbeat positive thoughts to give anybody and I am sorry about that. ANyways now today is starting off bad and I got to call and cuss some folks over some business so I will check in later

Angela

 

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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 1:43pm

Angela,


(((((HUGS)))) I am so sorry that you are going thru a tough time right now.


Know that we are here for you...


They key here is that you KNOW what you are eating is not right, you acknowledge that...


Just please do not let your anger allow food to take over you. You have been doing great...Focus the anger elsewhere. Work it out of you by doing some exercise , maybe a good brisk walk, will clear your head, and do you some real good. Just an idea.


Again, we are here for you!!!!

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 Karen


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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 1:53pm
Angela,
Don't give up I feel like that to. If you read my posts I to had
a bad weekend the evil greesey foods got the best of me.Friday
steakhouse then Sundaynight Pizza, and both were at night also.I did
good during the day then nightime hit and I wanted pizza thanks to
hubby saying the word PIZZA lol!It was my fault tho I shouldnt let it
bother me.Anyway you had a bad day just pick back up and start again
you can do it.I know I feel alot happier when I have a good healthy
day of eating along with exersiceing rather than that pizza and cookie night
lastnight I felt so bad and bloated afterwards!
If ya need to talk feel free to email me niannah123@yahoo.com
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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 2:27pm

sorry you had such a bad day.

things can only get better.

good luck

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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 2:46pm

Thank you for opening my eyes Karen. I didn't realize what I was doing til you pointed it out, but you are so right. Anger is my emotional trigger and I never even realized it. I thought it was being upset but no I realize now looking back that yesterday when my brother hurt my feelings so bad, I couldnt' eat, I got sick to my stomach and started trying to throw up what I had eat (sorry for mental image) but once I got angry at him, at dh, at everyone pretty much, all I wanted to do is eat. Thank you for seeing that in what I posted and pointing it out. I have been racking my brain over the last months trying to figure out what my emotional trigger was and now I know. Thanks again.

Angela

 

Angela

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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 2:47pm

Thank you!!

 

Angela

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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 2:48pm

LOL obviously you don't know my luck...they usualy get worse before better, but thank you, I am feeling a liittle better since posting and talking to my 2 best friends. Now I just have to tone my anger down, and calm my nerves, and just brush it all off and not let it bother me anymore.

angela

 

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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 3:01pm
Angela, I'm sorry things were going so bad for you. I hope it gets better. I totally understand. Cheer up.

 
 
 
 

 
 
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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 6:08pm
Angela, I'm sorry that Mother's Day didn't go as you had planned but it's over and there is nothing you can do about it.
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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 10:34pm

Angela, I am glad I could help.


I see that you are going thru a tough time and I am here for you, we all are.


Like with anything, knowing is half the battle.


(((HUGS)))

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 Karen


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Tue, 05-16-2006 - 1:12am
Angela, I'm so sorry you had to have a day like that. I've been there. I'm sure we've all been there. I'm exactly like that...an emotional eater. Something gets the best of me and I eat a big pile of junk! We've got to learn to replace food with something more productive. Like one of the PP said, maybe take a walk, pick up a new hobby, go window shopping, write in a journal....post on this board (which you always do an excellent job of). I'm so proud of you already because you have the guts to post it when you have a major "mess up". When I do that (yes I have) I never have the nerve to come post it. Especially when I was doing so well. You always have the ability to seek help. I'm working on that myself. Just pick up where you left off. Your place is still being held so go forward with it. You don't have to do anything great and major, just keep pressing on like you always seem to do. Please don't ever doubt that you're going to do this! Try to find a time to soothe and calm your nerves everyday. That helps SO much. I know this is hard to do with 3 children, but maybe wait until they go to sleep. Slip into a warm bath, breathe, and maybe pray too. Things always get worse before they get better so don't let this get to you. The better stuff is on the way. Talk to you later!

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