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| Mon, 05-15-2006 - 1:20pm |
I wasn't going to post at all, but I know now that I just can't give up. SO here I am, yesterday was a horrible day for me all around not just food. I won't go into details but let's say it was the worst mother's day I have ever had, and a mother's nightmare. Now I am so discouraged, stressed, upset, and just plain feeling down. Like I wasn't feeling that way bad enough anyways. The whole day was a disaster.
My eating went okay til last night when Dh and I blew up at one another and then I blew it, I had sonic cheeseburger and chili cheese fries. I know bad enough right but I didn't stop there I made cookies and i ate half of them, that is right HALF. I had sent him to the store and to get the sonic and well on his way out the door, i said the words get either a chocolate cake or some cupcakes i don't care which. OMG. Fortunately after the sonic an cookies I didn't touch the cupcakes.
So anyways, so I had a really horrible day emotional wise and I blew it in the end diet wise. Now until I get my head straight my goal is to maintain and get back on track. I am having a hard time doing that right now so it may take a few days. Until then I don't really have any upbeat positive thoughts to give anybody and I am sorry about that. ANyways now today is starting off bad and I got to call and cuss some folks over some business so I will check in later
Angela

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First I applaud you for posting about this and I applaud your attitude of "I just can't give up". You're right, you just can't give up now.
You had a GREAT week.. and if you forgot how great it is, just look at your previous postings and see how you did great overall. You stuck with a lower calorie plan than you usually do and we all know that this was a challenge. And you did follow through with it. We cannot ask for perfection.. you did the best you can and you deserve credit for it. YOU know YOU've been trying hard and YOU deserve credit for it.
You had a bad eating night and afterwards a bad eating day.. this could've continued into a bad eating week and then a 'what the heck I'll never do it'. But you chose to stop that. And you chose to learn from it and try to avoid it in the future. This is what our journey is, a learning journey.
Life is not always roses and butterflies.. fights happen.. people get angry.. and they look for a release. It is excellent that you realise now that your release for anger comes through food. Now with that in mind you can try to find solutions. You can work your way around it or at least see it coming and try to get out of it with the least damage.
I hope you're feeling better today
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