Very depressed today
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| Fri, 05-19-2006 - 11:33am |
I apologize in advance for this. I'm just extremely depressed today. I'm very grouchy because of the whole quitting smoking thing (who's bright idea was that anyway?), plus I'm in the middle of PMS (can anyone say "good timing"?). And I don't know, I just feel like my life is a pile of poo right now. I'm broke and am trying to find a way to earn extra money, but a 2nd job is difficult with my other responsibilities. I feel ugly and disgusting, and while my brain understands that's not true, it's just how I'm feeling right now. Add to that the fact that I haven't had a boyfriend in over 3 years (and I still haven't totally gotten over him, but he's married now, so it doesn't matter), haven't had sex in almost a year, can't seem to meet men who are interested in dating me (I think because of my weight), and the fact that I am so fricking LONELY most of the time I could cry. I don't have many friends here locally, and it's not easy for me to make friends. I'm trying to do thing to improve my life but none of it seems to be working yet. The novel I've been working on has stalled out (for a variety of reason) and my new healthy eating/losing weight lifestyle just doesn't seem to be working either. I've only lost 4 lbs in the last month, and no matter what I do, I just can't break past 254.
Sorry, guys, I just had to vent.
Allie

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I'm sorry you are feeling depressed. I wish I could make you feel better. I do think about you. I was thinking earlier today
Allie,
I so very understand a lot of what you are feeling, and if you want to email me to just talk feel free to do so at any time. ashivers@elmore.rr.com
I would be glad to listen any time, I do that well most of the time, especially if it is in type form...LOL that way I can reread if I have trouble concentrating. Feeling so icky about yourself isn't good, belive me I battle with it myself, but what you are feeling is real, and no one can deny that, it takes time, talking, and just working through it to make it go away, and that is something that is easier said than done. Remember I am here to listen and not judge any time you want.
Angela
Angela
I'm new here, but I could have written that post!
First of all you don't have to apologize for venting! I understand everything you're saying. Its like that saying "when it rains it pours". Right? Well it doesn't rain forever. Tough times don't last for long. You'll pull out of this and do just fine! Just remember too that you're not without friends, you have all of us (if I may speak so boldly for the rest of the members here) There is just really a feeling and spirit of support here that I've never felt before. Even when I used to go to Weight Watchers meetings. So I just wanted to tell you that you're never alone, ok??
Allie, how are you doing now? I hope you're feeling better.. I hope you can check in soon.. we're worried about you :)
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