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| Thu, 06-15-2006 - 12:47am |
I've done so horribly these last couple of days. Why can't I just do this? I'm so frustrated to tears that I can't seem to keep going. I used to have all this energy to really get going on something. I feel like I'm in a rut. It seems that everyday I find something I consider motivational...so why do I forget about it with the first distraction that comes along? I'm so tired of being this big. Here is the scary thing that happened today: I went outside to give our poodle a haircut this evening. I sat on the porch and put him between my knees and started cutting. I was almost done with his feet when I noticed that I had no feeling in my legs. I have bad circulation so I thought I would just move my legs and it wouldn't be that big of a deal. Wrong. When I went to move my legs the most horrible sharp pain went through my knees. I was scared to move my legs b/c it hurt so bad. I forced myself to get up to standing very slowly. My gosh this is what this weight is doing to me! Its not the only thing either. I'm tired of feeling like a turtle on its back all the time.


you need to breathe and refocus. recenter all your positive energy and push out all the bad. you can do this!! we are here to hear your rambilings. just hang in there darling.
-Audrey
Laura, big hugs to you.
You know you can do this, we all have struggles and times when we feel like we can't. But you know you can.
One day at a time.
No you cannot give up food....But you can continue on the path you are on. You have been doing great. You have lost in your waist already like you plan to.
Don't give up.
We are all here for you!!!
Karen
Hey, Laura, I know I'm a day late and all, but I just wanted to say that we're all here for you and that you CAN achieve your goal. I'm glad you decided to focus on the positive today. Every day is a new chance to make a difference in yourself!
Holli
Hi Laura
I know it's been said before but you can do this! You're taking steps to be healthier for yourself and to set a better example for your babygirl. No it's not going to be easy and there will be somedays that you fail, but the important thing is you never give up!
we're here for you anytime you need it!
off the subject, love your new siggy.. your lil girl is adorable :)
My First 10% of Body Weight
Hi, Laura--
So glad to see you're on the upswing again. Try to remember that a couple of bad days won't undo your progress altogether... as long as the good days outpace them.
It IS ridiculously difficult to have this habit that we can't quit cold turkey, and the frustration seems to bubble under the surface much of the time. Frustration and worry about losing my mobility was a wake-up call for me, and now I'm just on the cusp of having my knees feel better... to the point that one or two bad days makes a real difference in my aches and pains. But even with this direct correlation staring me in the face, I flub. (Sorry for the bizarre vocabulary, but that's the only word that does it justice and can be printed on a public page.) Blast us for being human! Can we blame it on the phases of the moon??? Whatever the reason, hopefully we can push, pull or kick each other back on track and reach our goals. Thanks for being there, and I'm wishing you many good days in a row now.
Misha
275.5/254/135
Laura,
I am sorry I am so late replying but been battling those darn migraines still and a computer screen was the last thing I wanted to look at. Anyways, I am so glad you feel beter. Believe me I know what it feels like to get depressed and frustrated. I finally figured out what you tried to tell me a month ago about myself and that is that I am still battling with depression. I know the dr says it is postpartum and all that but geez ds is 2 yo for goodness sakes. Anyways, my point is like misha said we all have bad days and if we let those bad days stop us from doing this for ourselves then we lose in the end and so does our families and we can't do that to us or them! We have to remember that we are also doing this for our babies sakes not just for us. Do you know how happy my kids are that I have been able to withstand the heat enough so far this summer to take them to the pool a few times? That I have been doing stuff with them?? Believe me it makes a HUGE difference to them. I can see it in the way that K's (dd12) attitude is changing toward me. She is trying harder to get along with me cuz I am getting along with myself better!! Does that even make sense? I am glad you found it in yourself to pick yourself back up. You can do this, we both can! It is all about putting our minds to it.
Angela
256 may 8
247.8 today
231 1st goal
Angela