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| Thu, 06-15-2006 - 12:53pm |
I should be proud of myself, I should be happy with my results, but I AM NOT. Starting last Monday I have been so good at eating less and exercising for all these 10 days. I managed to lose more than 10 pounds due to my fasting on the earliest days. Till yesterday I was so optimistic and full of energy, but not today! I look at my reflection on the window in front of me and get angry at myself. How could I gain this much weight? (In the photo I am 70 pounds slimmer and 7 years younger).


Darling it;s going to take time. I'm a week into this and i'm about to crack. Earlier today i had chex mix and was ready to eat the whole bag, i screamed 'NO' to myself and shoved it in a drawer (mind you i'm at work). I want all this weight to be off now. But not matter how hard i work out, not matter how many calories i don't eat, it won't come off any faster.
This is a life style change. You're not doing this to loose 5 vanity pounds. You are doing this for better and healthier you. With positive changes and positive life style choices and KEEPING these choices and changes, you'll continue down this path for the rest of your life.
You can do this. I know you can. Now breathe, smile, because you are worth it.
-Audrey
It seems like you're doing a LOT of exercise each day plus reducing your calories and fasting. Were you a big exercise person before the last 10 days? If not, maybe your body is trying to tell you something. It seems like at first you were on a high from the immediate results, but now you've dropped down low. The reality of how far you have to go is setting in. I'm just wondering, but do you think that your current diet and exercise plan is sustainable for the long term? If so, that's really impressive and I admire you so much; but if not, it might not be a bad idea to develop a plan you can stick with. I know that when I do too much, too fast, I always end up getting down and sabotaging myself. If that's not the case with you, I apologize. I'm not trying to offend, and I wish you nothing but the best on your journey.
Holli
Thank you for your reply. I understand what you mean. I agree that if whatever I do is too much I have to rethink my strategies. I don't think whatever I do is not attainable, I can go on like this forever, however I will let the diet ties a little bit loose after I reach my target weight.
I don't overexercise and I eat something 4-5 times a day, mostly veggies, fruits, lean meat, complex carbs.
Why oh why do we beat ourselves up? It hurts us. When I feel like this I take a deep breath and remember, I must love the person in my shoes if I am to be of any use to any one, myself included.I must love me as I am!(I am assuming we are not axemurderers) Go easy on yourself, you are doing great and will achieve your goals! You are a worthy person weight and all. Hold up your head and take care of you. You will get there. It just takes time.
Sincerely,
Becky
You are off to an excellent start and it will happen soon enough. Just remember that your weight didn't come on overnight and it won't go away overnight. It's awesome that you have lost over 10 lbs already...think about it, that's about 13% of your total goal. Why not try making mini goals and reward yourself along the way. I know from experience that 70 or 80 or 100 lbs can seem like a long way to go to "look good" again, but usually you start feeling like you look better after only a bit lost. As soon as your pants/tops get loose, get a new pair that fits you better and that you look better in, it will make you feel better.
Staci
I agree... that's such fabulous progress in a very short time! Maybe it's time for a quick re-think now that you're into your program to shake things up. Do you have enough energy (calories) coming in to sustain all that activity? Would a reasonable mini-goal/reward improve your attitude? Is it time for ONE piece of chocolate for a serotonin rush? (No, maybe not!)
It seems weird, but several people on this board have commented on how they suddenly realized their size/shape AFTER they began losing weight. (Myself included-- when did I change from a pear to an apple?) All part of the new body consciousness, I suppose. But you are already slimmer, and you will be slim. It just takes time, and strength of purpose... which I think you have!
Good luck,
Misha
275.5/254/135
i doing the same thing. i just want this weight to be gone. I take my reading for classes to the gym so i can read it while i'm busting my hump. i get excited about things but then i get bored or tired of working so hard.
-Audrey
Thank you so much for you nice comments all the time :). It really helps to hear words of encouragement from you and other great ladies on this board.
Today I feel much better. I just came from gym/sauna, and it feels great to leave another successful day behind and start the new one with good attitude. Yesterday I was down, but then I thought if I eat all those yummy cookies and
I am glad that you feel better, and I wish I had your discipline!! You can keep going, I know you have in you!!! Good luck!!
Angela
256 May 8th
247.8 today
231 1st goal
Angela
Thank you Angela!
Also I have noticed that you lost 9 pounds since last month, that is not bad at all! That speaks of your hard work. Also the slower those pounds come off the harder for them to get back. You too keep going and post us about your feelings and efforts and results.
One thing I promised myself is that before putting