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cant control my emotions or my weight
| Mon, 07-10-2006 - 8:47pm |
i cant control my emotions the guy i like is leaving the countary i wont meet him cause im fat im going to lose him forever im devastated i keep eating im losing it everything is shattering im lost cant lose weight i eat eat eat im stressed out if he doesnt respond or talk to me or ignore me a bit i get devastated my mind is occupid with him all the time whats wrong with me i gained 30lbs thinkning about him and now cant lose it and cant even show him my face helppppp

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Angela yes i felt that way when i started about leaving plans in august i dont know what he has in mind on one side he talks about leaving on the other he literlly begs me to call him forcing me to buy a cell so that we can talk almost evryday and he can call me he even asks me to call him at night time around 12am or so, writes my birthday date so that he remembers and how excited he is that i will be getting a cell today which is purely casue of his constant requests and then he talks about how happy he is on leaving and that he wont be marrying any girl from here since they all are stupid. I dont get him
, where hes heading i think just passing time ,no wonder he has alottt of female friends that are just friends. Honestly hes the one always pushing me to call him and everything else i never show any signs and never admitted verbally that i like him dont want to make a fool of myself if theres nothing in response anyways hes gonna ask me to call him and talk to him and then even after all this will leave. i think i will just go on thats it for now.btw he told my sis we are just friends and that im a nutty professor thats what hes calling me for today not to mention silly girl, fatty, weirdo and Lady Impossible.
You poor guy! This guy is totally playing with your head. I know exactly what he's doing, because I've gone threw the same thing with a close male friend of mine when I was in college.
He's a friend that's all. And that's all he thinks of you as. But he wants you to want him. That's what all the flirtatious behavior is about! See he doesn't see you as a 'girlfriend' type and there is nothing you can do to change that. But he still gets off on the power trip, of getting you to do things like call him at certain times. He flirts with you to keep you on the hook. It's a guy thing, it makes him feel like a stud, powerful, like some sort of rock star, having you jump everytime he calls!
Don't be embarrassed or ashamed it happened to me, and it's happened to my girlfriends. WE all got into these screwed up relationship with a male friend, who we thought we had a spark with, and in time were sure it would develop into a real romatinic relationship. Or course they never do. Guys either are into a girl or not into her, and they decided that at the first meeting. After that you could stand pole dance sticking hundred dollar bills in his pants and he you wouldn't change his mind about you.
The best you thing you can do is take back control of this relationship. Limit your phone calls to him to once a day or less. let him call you, After you've talked to him your one time and he calls you let it go to voicemail. Purposely change the subject when he gets flirty. When he mentions other women (these guys love to make us jealous) smile and encourage him. say things like "Yah I agree you wouldn't be a good match for a girl in the usa." with all sincerity. or end the phone call, just hang up and tell him you got cut off.
You can't make him think of you as a girlfriend, but you can reclaim your dignity and self-confidence if you take control back.
You said your parents are arranging a marriage for you, perhaps it's your uncertainty about this that is making you cling to this 'friend' imagining he has alot more to offer than he really has. Instead I think you should focus on getting to know this man you might be marrying. call him, write him, talk and find out more about him. As you get control of your relationships you might be better able to control your diet.
There is a great book called 'He's not that into you." You should read it. It explain this behavior perfectly.
Hon I so agree with Sara, TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE!! Now I am not quite sure I understand the arranged marriage issue, you <>, I take that to mean that situation is over and done with, but I may be wrong!
Guys will play girls, and ya know what we can play them too. I never realized it when I was younger but looking back I now realize I played a few myself in my younger days, but it wasn't intentional on my part! A lot of them do it intentionally (guys and girls) and like Sara said it is to build theirselves up. If he is going to dangle you on a string then you HAVE GOT TO cut that string! Don't let him do that. I agree with Sara, cut back on the calling, if he begs you to call tell him you will try then don't. When he asks tell him you just got too busy to call, you are sorry!! If you are calling from a cell phone tha hanging up and saying you lost your connection will definitely work!! Whatever you decide you have got to live life for you, not for a guy, cuz if you live for a guy you will only lose in the end, TAKE MY WORD FOR THAT!! Believe me, I have been there done that!! Sitting at home waiting for him to call is no fun whatsoever. Ya know what though, I got lucky, while I was sitting home waiting for the last one to call, I got online and met dh, and realized that guy I was waiting on, isn't the one after all!!! LMAO. Put yourself out there and you may be pleasantly suprised!! Mr. Right is out there somewhere, but until he shows up, just live and enjoy life! I don't know about the whole arranged marriage thing, I know a lot of people do that, personally I don't think I could, but like Sara said, it wouldn't hurt to talk to him, IF that situation isn't over and done with, and get to know him. Once again, you may be pleasantly suprised!! Life does work in mysterious ways and so does GOd!!
Angela
Edited 7/17/2006 11:04 am ET by angelashivers2006
Angela
i want to get so beautifull by septmeber that he feels sorry for his loss! even the thought makes me sad
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I'm glad you're feeling better.. 60 hours of work?! That's one busy girl. BTW how did the chat go?
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the chat "the chat" it started plainly with both of us ignoring eachother it always happens when theres a gap for like 1 or 2 week but i said hi and then he started talking was just waiting for me to msg i guess and then on his request i called him he kept asking me to meet him right that evening and i said no later he said i will leave and may never come back i said im going to be here if u come back we will meet and i said it it makes no difference(may be he got the idea behind that line) , anyhow i promised i will get cell the next day and call him buy i didnt thats on monday but imgetting cell today.
Today another news from him has broken my heart and now i want to cry away and some how forget all this i read his email from yesterday , im pasting it here :
""I thought I email you today. Since I don’t have anyone to share how I feel, might as well share it with you. Don’t know why today was such an awkward day. Quite….the morning wind as though sweetness was leaving in the cool wind. Sometimes the breeze would flap the curtains and sometimes it would stop. I put on another smile charge myself out the door to work for another successful day… so it happened. I came home after work had dinner, then went off to the gym. Met an old friend …. And then he mentioned… about the girl I liked. He said she’s getting married on August 12.
Sometimes I know no one will understand the intensity of blood rush I go through listening to such news. I am so terribly feeling sick; from a smile …my heart bloomed as if like a burnt flower. My day has once again turned into a painful nightmare. Out of all the people why do I have to hear things like that… I question myself. Why do things turn on me in such manner? Perhaps, I am punished, for sinning…? I loved therefore I have sinned. What greater punish would that be? Torment within owns thought of nostalgic past….? Then I say to myself, I wish I hadn’t loved for I have sinned so… I hate myself for what I’ve put myself through. Sometimes I wish I had a reverse button to end this feeling from where it started. You must be thinking I’m nuts … hah I feel so sad you wont believe the intensity of sadness I am in right now. I just can’t wait to leave …. I so want to forget my life from here…anyhow I think I have eaten your time and brain, sorry if this was too much to share… ""
This is his email and his saying why he loved this and that and want to leave is somehow making me realize im just a friend nothign esle maybe im wrong but i get jealous of his feelings for "her" i will go mad ! now im not going to talk to him i cant put up a friendly front when im sad and encourage him cant he see what hes doing to me when he knows hes the only going i ever connected with and besides saying no no im now listening to him anyhow i just hope he leaves and stop talking to me!! and i also forget him since i have no future with him!
Angela
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